hmmm..

3 years..wow

2009-12-04T22:00:00.003+08:00

3 years..
wow..
never thought i'd have the time to do this again. my guess is you have to make time to have time huh. will update soon enough. i am sleepy. sweet dreams everyone!!!

what a week

2006-07-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

oh boy...what a week...firstly on monday..at 1 in the morning there was an exercise..on tuesday morning actually..exercise boca or something..don't really remember the name..but it was damn tiring..but we pulled through..me and my platoon mates of course..and there other platoons involved too..i could say that we did quite well actually..then on wednesday..there was an rept test..a test which will determine our fireman skills..i got an A for every test except one..what a waste..if not i'd be getting $200 more on my next pay..but too bad..guess i can try again next year..that is if im not clearing my leave by then..hahaha...on thursday..my platoon is on standby..and involved in another exercise..about a plane crashing at sea..we were divided in 2 groups..first aid point and rescue..it wasn't that tiring but it was quite long..we had to for the sea rescuers to search and rescue the "casualties" and bring them to shore..at the jetty..at changi..there..me and my other platoon mates and some fire fighters waited..and we would escort the walking casualties or carry the lying casualties with stretchers to the first aid point and go back again until there's no more casualties found..after the exercise,went back to camp..i don't know why i was so tired..once i reached our bunk..i just went straight to bed and slept til morning..fortunately there was no turn outs..woke up at 7..took a shower..then had breakfast with some of my mates..we were off on friday..for doing good on the boca exercise..still not sure about the name..anyways..i accompanied my friend to jb..he wanted to fix his motorcycle..after that we kinda went shopping..there were 3 of us..me and my other friend bought some things..i bought shoes,facial wash,hair gel..i was so happy to get those shoes i wanted..hehehe..but i wasn't for long..apparently i was careless when i chilled under my block with my friend for a while..i took out my phone to msg my dad and forgot to keep it back..went back as normal..and had to go to my dad's for ngaji as normal..when i was just about to call my dad that i was going out of the house..then i realised that my phone was nowhere to be found..DAMN..fortunately it's not that expensive and i was going to buy a new one anyways..so i terminated my line temporary..and i'll be getting a new phone next month and reactivate my line at the same time..what a week..so hectic..hahaha...be bloggin

it's a pity...

2006-06-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

It's A Pity

you know i love you.. i've always do
but too often i make you feel blue..
i appreciate your love.. don't be mistaken
it's just that i tend to make the wrong decisions
too often i act before really thinking..
and now you're gone..you're already leaving
you're not to blame.. seriously.. i've let you down
those hopes you had for me.. by now has drown
i turned out to be the guy you never thought i'd be..
i was just like the rest.. another jerk maybe
i'm sorry for all the pain i've caused
i'm sorry for all the love that's lost
i'm sorry it had to be this way
it's a pity... i couldn't make you stay

2 mths oreadi?

2006-06-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

heelloooo...it's been very very very very very long since i've blogged huh?well..my comp's been giving me trouble due to too much memory used..hehehe..partly my fault..and i wasn't feeling that good these few months..it's been 2 months plus since chot and me broke up..been feeling very down..so alone..as if my life has no meaning left to live in..as if there's no one else whom i can share my life with..besides my family and friends that is..well..i've come to realise..it was great while it lasted..i still love her but she can't possibly love someone like me..thats what she said..so i guess i just have to accept it and move on..whatever or whoever makes her happy...im happy for her..that's about it i guess..be bloggin

ps.check out this new rhyme i did(top)..hehe..

i really hate this...

2006-04-10T09:21:00.000+08:00

this sucks..i really hate this..she can take the silent treatment..i can't..i can't help worrying..how's she doing..how's her daughther doing..is she eating well..does she have plenty of rest..i miss her..i really do..i miss her alot..i can't write anymore...be bloggin

april fool

2006-04-01T09:13:00.000+08:00

i just got out from the hospital..the doctor says i have a serious case of broncitis..usually it can be cured but my case is different due to the constant smoking..damn...he said that i might live to a month..the most..the least?anytime soon i guess..so...what's the use of stopping now since im gonna die anyways...hahaha..do you guys actually believe that?hahaha...APRIL FOOL..gotcha...not that hilarious..i know..hahaha...anyways..i just reached home..was on duty yesterday..i actually thought of staying up til the next morning..but was tired due to the punishment i was given..haha...there was this interview yesterday..after my turn..i had to call another person..but that person did not hear..so it's my fault..hahaha...honestly..i'd rather be punished then sign an extra..hahahaha..after the punishment..thought could tahan ar..stay up maybe...movie marathon-ing..but was tired..DAMN..so i slept..and now hat i've reached home..thought of sleeping after blogging..and im done..be bloggin

miss you sweetheart.....

baby iman...

2006-03-26T17:26:00.000+08:00

may peace be upon all of you...hehehe....i just got back from jb..visited my mom who just gave birth to a beautiful baby boy named Muhammad Iman on 21st march..hehehe...i got pictures to show but i got no time today..i'll publish it next week if im not busy or anything..it's been quite a while since i've visited my mom..i think i'll be doing that once a month whenever i have the time..this month went alone..thought of going with ash and my girl..but both couldn't make it..so i went alone..fortunately i know how to get there..hahaha..if not i'd be lost..hahahahaha..anyways...i wasted no time taking pictures of baby iman..videos too...my mom says he looks abit like ash..i dunno..i couldn't really see it..later i'ma asked anga to take some more pictures..he's heading there today..not alone..with my stepdad..im certain he'll take more pictures of baby iman then me..hahahah...he loves babies..and when it comes to baby sister and brother..he's loving it..hahahha..maybe if my girl's not tired..ima go eat with her..if not...alone then..hahaha..by now i should be used to it already..this sucks..even when she's not working..i don't see her that often..hahaha....i hate this..i'ma grab myself a snack..take a shower..pack a few things for camp..then rest before going...be bloggin.....

don't shut yourself out..

2006-03-18T15:36:00.000+08:00

is it too late for me to change now?are my previous changes too drastic that you've lost all love in us?don't leave me wondering..don't shut yourself out..please..im begging for you to tell me the truth..tell what's wrong...is there anything bothering you?or am i bothering you?since your birthday..things change...im starting to change to my old self..but you're starting to change to your old self too...it's been 6 months we've been together..you're bored with me already?i know i did wrong..i know i changed alot...i realise it now...if there really is something bothering you..tell me..please...don't keep it inside..don't hide it from me..you know i love..always have and never won't..believe when i say that i've never been so serious with a girl before..let alone you..who was once just a friend to me..then a best friend..to god sister...now a special someone whom i've thought of marrying..im sorry..truly am sorry...i understand it take some time to forgive me..but at least tell me what's wrong..what's boethering you..what's on your mind right now..or do you need time alone now..i'll wait this time..and not freak out about it..i promise.....i promise i'll change and prove it to you one day..if you could just give me a chance...i love you..and you know it's true..miss you sweetheart..

gime me a chance...

2006-03-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday's pit...wasn't really what i expected..a simple kiss and a simple 'thank you would surely do it...instead..she brought him with her..im not angry that she invited him..but not telling me about it..is really unexpectable...*i want to make it up to you..make up all the stupid things i did before..if you would just give me a chance..seriously...but i guess i deserve it..happy birthday*..overall was okay..food wasn't enough...so i bought more..came at 8 at night..went off at 8 in the morning...me,my girl,ash and alip took the bus home..i just woke up..later going to my uncle's..collect a few things there..then to my girl's..give her a few things she wanted..then back home..and around 10..off to camp..yesterday was so confusing..that i forgot to take pictures..damn....hahaha...i'll write about camp next time round..gotta go now..be bloggin

don't hope..

2006-02-26T14:55:00.000+08:00

don't hope...
i miss her..

mc's over...

2006-02-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

mm..mc's over..going back in camp this sunday..seriously..can't wait..but abit nervous...hahah..well i've been gone for so long..and didn't take the fire fighting course with my platoon and i didn't even get to be on attachment at ang mo kio fire post..DAMN..mm...been busy when i could selowly start to walk..been packing stuffs in boxes..finding empty boxes..what else?to shift house of course..yesh...i've shifted..to yishun..it's quiet here without my friends at ang mo kio..have yet to make friends here..always at home..if not..out eating with my girl..chill at ang mo kio during the weekends whenever i have the time..im telling you..my schedule will be so pack..time will pass so freaking fast..hahaha..monday to friday..im in camp..most probably be taking back my motor practical after office hours whenever i have the time..and money of course..hahha..friday night will be at my dad's..finally having a fixed schedule on religious teaching..saturday be meeting my girl if i have the time or vice versa..she'll be busy too starting next month..juggling school and 2 jobs..WOW...sunday i'll probably be at home resting as i have to be in camp by 2359..hehehe..that sums up my week..for the rest of my ns life..after that?mm...we'll see how it goes...be bloggin yarh..whenever i have the time la..hehehee

forgiven?

2006-01-18T11:52:00.000+08:00

me and my girl talked..she made me realise my mistake..both...yes...it wasn't one but two..she made me realise it when she told me..she's right..people don't know their mistakes until someone tells them..damn..i hate to admit it..but she's thinking more matured then me..mistakes..i guess maturity comes from the mistakes we make..for the past 20 years..the only mistake i've ever made is when im with the ones i love..what i've realise is that the only same mistake that i keep on repeating is breaking promises...and believe me..the promises i've made..and broken...is really hurtful...personally..im no good at keeping big promises..small ones i can handle..but not big ones..come to think of it..i've made a mistake twice..in a day....people can change..thats what she told me once..then i told her yarh..but it's either for the better or for the worst..am i changing?..i dunno...til now im still thinking about the mistake i made..that mistake made me think back about all the other mistakes i've done before..not only to her..she's really being so understanding about the whole thing..she's willing to give me another chance..would you?if your significant other made a mistake twice to you in a day...depends what kind of mistake they'd make right?but believe me..it's personal...and i mean literally...i try to give it another chance..she did...why can't i?i guess i still need time to think about it...the only time that i can really put my mind out it is when im with her..or just listening to some music..mm...music has always been a distraction to my massive thinking...hahaha...too much thinking gives me headaches anyways...hahaha..be bloggin

a mistake made..

2006-01-14T15:04:00.000+08:00

i made a mistake..yesterday i did something which hurt my chot's feelings..i broke a promise that i made to her..and now she like so angry with me...so damn mad..and now i'm feeling guilty..and scared..i admit..i've changed a lot..but i still love her....i do

dressings...

2006-01-11T09:56:00.000+08:00

morning people..i just got back from the polyclinic nearby..at ang mo kio...had my dressing there..have to change the the dressing on my foot alternate days..a short but painful procedure...a nurse will cut up my old dressing..then take out the cotton which was shoved inside my wound..only a little bit of pain..then she'll start cleaning the wound..that procedure is damn painful...hahahah..after that she'll start to shoved some sterlize cotton into my wound again..cover it up with bandage and she's done...short but painful...hahahha...my dad sent me there..then send me back home too..im grateful to have such caring parents...love them....i did some minor picture adjustments to my blog..a new picture of putri..as for the rest...it's yet to be settled...maybe tonight..for now..ima eat my medicine and rest til afternoon..my cousin's coming down to pay me a visit at home..she's gonna order pizza hut for my birthday...hehehe..happy birthday to me...yay!..hahaha..i'm 20..getting older every year..hehehe..be bloggin

bored being on mc..

2006-01-10T02:39:00.000+08:00

boredom..thats what im feeling right now..being on mc isn't as much fun like y'all think it is..as for me..i can't walk properly..as my wound isn't fully healed..so basically i can't walk alot..how i wish a miracle would happen and i could go back to work..be my normal self and walk properly..but i can't..just have to wait for it to fully heal i guess..i can go out..only for smokes..but when im back at amk..i can just smoke in the room..so what can i possibly do?nothing...well..i guess i will be doing something there..at least i can like update my blog template..edit my profiles here and there..edit some pictures..or take new ones...basically just that..it's already hari raya haji..have to be up by 6..follow my dad to the mosque..but i have to stay in the car..after my dad and my brothers finish their prayers..we're heading to the grand's for a visit..those who've gone to haji that is..after that..we'll be heading home..then i'll be stuck at home..UNLESS..my heel is feeling abit better..UNLESS..i can walk without the crutches..let it be soon..how i wish..but i can only pray...mm..i miss my girl badly..although im on mc..i can't see her...physically..for the time being..she doesn't want me walking around making my wound any worst..but im a stubborn guy..she's sick..badly...i feel sad not being by her..taking care of her..making sure she eats her medicine..making sure she eats well..making sure she drinks alot of water..to replace lost fluids of course..i should i guess..i learned about it through the medic course..i wanna accompany her to the doctor this thursday..she says she can go by herself..what if she faints?i can be the arms to catch her fall..what if she feels giddy?i can walk with her through the day..although my left heel is injured..the other parts of my body is still functional..im not weak..im just temporarily disabled..i really wanna be there for her..it hurts to see her like this..feels bad knowing i can't do anything about it..sure she has her friends..unless i know her friends..i don't really trust them that much..when i talked to her on the phone..she kept coughing and sniffing..saddens me to hear that..she's really ill...mm...but she's old enough to take care of herself..i trust her to take care of herself..so what i can do is just pray for her well being..and that she'll get better soon..mm...i think she is clueless of how much i care for her..can't blame her for that..i've never really been there for her these few months..busy with work and all..but i'll make it up to her..one day...i feel sleepy but i cannot sleep..i guess knowing that she's sick is really bothering me..mm...thought of asking her to come over my place..but she's sick..so i'll come to her place..but she won't let me..*u dok uma diam2..kaki u da kene operate beh nk jln agi..*..thats what she told me..we'll see k..miss her so much...well..just hoping to meet her before my mc is done..be bloggin..tomorrow i guess

piyo piyo.............

2006-01-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

i've post out...yaaaaaaaaaaayy...but sadly..i'm on mc for 2 weeks..damn..why?because of the fucking 'blister' the fucking 'm.o.' from my camp claimed it was nothing but then it was something...SERIOUS..it was actually a bacteria spreading at my heel..luckily i went straight to the hospital after camp to get it check out..because it was really getting irritatably painful since thursday..if i hadn't gone to the hospital..i might have gotten my leg amputated..hahaha...same thing that nearly happen at the top of my right ass...hahahaha...i undergo-ed an operation the day before yesterday and was discharged yesterday..now on mc for 2 weeks..lame-o....some of y'all might really think that i'm crazy but i'm really looking to the fire fighting course..and i'm gonna miss a week of it..or maybe more..depending of the recovery of my operated heel...FUCK...the stupid 'm.o.' in camp should be sued...but never mind..cannot really blame the shithead..due to all the 'chao-kengs'..there's a possibility that he might think i was one too...hahahha...i'm just glad i'm still in one piece..only sad about missing the 1st week of fire fighting..no use regreting now..the only thing i can do now is finish up my antibiotics and go for new bandages every other day..hope it really gets better soon..a week please?hehehe...it's getting late..i'ma sleep..be bloggin..alot i guess..due to boredom at home...hahahaha

p.o.p.....i think..

2005-12-26T17:04:00.000+08:00

if my calculations are right...i'm only left with a week of M.O.C. and another week of p.o.p rehearsel then i'm done with the SRB training..and finally become an SRB personnel...hopefully..hehe...i really hope i can get my $300 allowance..and maybe my pay by february will increase to $650...wheeeeeeeeeeee....finally..a worhty job with a worthy pay...then i have to really manage the money..mm....been busy lately these few weeks..yesterday accompanied my mom to jb along with syuhaidah,saddan,adek,min..shifted some of the lighter stuffs to the new apartment my mom bought there...while anga organised my aunt's stuffs in our house..she's moving in with us...ang mo kio is only temporary now..we'll be moving in together in yishun soon...at least nearer to my camp..speaking of camp...i have to be back in camp by tonight...aiyo...4 days in camp then out again...guess it's gonna be a fast one...can't wait for 31st..finally gonna spend ample time with my girl...hehe....i gtg now...be bloggin about next week's outing...with pictures hopefully....

2 mths..

2005-12-04T13:25:00.000+08:00

last blogged on oct..and now it's already dec...haha..i'm already posted out to vocation training..i'm in SRB.. special rescue battalion..i have to undergo 10 weeks training first..2 weeks of rescue..3 weeks of medic course..2 weeks of attachment..and 3 weeks of fire fighting course..i've passed a week of rescue and it's already damn tiring..but i just have to endure..and anyways..the pay is quite good..if i passed my tests after the 10 weeks..i'll get $300 allowance..so my total pay will be $650 a month..nice huh?..hehehe..and since i have to stay in mon to fri..i think i'll be saving alot..hehehe...breakfast and lunch provided..only for dinner that i'll have to go out and eat..9 more weeks and i can't wait...hehehe...anyways..my life out of ns is getting interesting too...i'll be shifting soon....i'm taking my motor license..FINALLY..hahaha...and i think i'll be getting my new phone pretty soon..hahaha...i'll be booking in today..so i'll stop here..and i'm hungry anyways..be bloggin

almost a month in camp...

2005-10-01T14:29:00.000+08:00

almost a month in camp and i'm exhausted..hahaha..fun but tiring...it's a bit like school actually..in school,we greet the teachers..in camp,we greet the higher rankers..and we cannot smoke in uniform..hahaa..so i didn't smoke in camp..smoked my last stick when booking in..book out on friday..got home and smoke...i can say that i can 'tahan' la..hahaha..not so tempted to smoke when some of my friends smoked secretly..hehe...i might as well quit right?hahaha..see how la k..pt lessons(physical training) are tough..but when you get used to doing it almost every morning..it gets quite fun...gyms are a bore to me..luckily it's only once a week..honestly i have no interest in making my body 'bigger'..hahaha..just being fit is good enough for me..then there's footdrills...footdrills i can do..what i can't is maintaining my uniform's neatness..hahaha...there's talks too..talks about insurance..health..SCDF..maintenance..and many more boring talks...IPPT is next week..it's exactly like the fitness test in school but without the sit and reach...hopefully i can pass and get a silver or something...then i can book in and out for a week i think..last time there's distruption..like you can get time off from camp..3 weeks i think...but now the rules have changed..troublesome but it's better than nothing...and fasting month is coming next week..oooo...more endurance...i realise that when you're going for ns..you cannot just be physically prepared..you have to be mentally prepared to..and just endure whatever the instructors,PTI's,officers or whoever throws at you...i guess it is kinda fun being in ns..thats what i think..for those who don't..have a positive mind and your 2 years will be enjoyable...thats my life..as for my life...i still have to endure..for the things that might be hurting...i guess it is quite tough to have a long lasting relationship...patience and trust is what i'll need to make it last...mm...but then again it is quite boring being all nice and never quarrel...hehe...yes i am weird...hahahahha...but it is..most of the time i'd stand down..but when i want to start the fight,she'd fall down..aiyo...ssh oh...hahahaha...i just heard my washing machine calling me to hang the clothes..tata for now..be bloggin....

jb was fun..

2005-09-09T16:46:00.000+08:00

jb was fun..my mom has bought a house there..2 storeys..has a staircase..a room below and 3 at the second..a gate..security guards..okla..it's safe..the security's cautious too..it's at taman sri pulai perdana..i hafta learn the road there..my mom wants me to..so i can go there myself maybe..by bike or something...was there on the 7th..went there with my mom and little sister..then i got home..the next day..went there with chot and ash..went to angsana..bought a slipper and slip-ons..went back jb home but then got stuck there because of the rain..so me,ash,chot,putri and my mom slept there...i was the last one to sleep..woke up this morning..called a cab..went straight home...we had fun..the house was grand..but it's only temporary...my mom wants to rent the place..see how it would turn out..then hopefully if it turns out okay..then she'll be thinking of buying it for sure..but an even bigger one...hehe..with the help of her sons of course...hehehe..i hafta get ready to go now..going out with some friends..be bloggin

a wk 2 go..

2005-09-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

jeng jeng jeng..just woke up...slept at 6 in the morning yesterday..chilled with my underblock friends..before that i accompanied my girl cousin at her home..she was alone and she was feeling kinda scared..because of the incredible tales show...so when her mom got home then i went home..got home then my mom cut my hair..it's was too long already..cannot stand it..hehe...after that i bathe and went down..ate with my friends then chilled at the playground..we played color catching for a while..it was fun...later going out..i think..hahaha...if my pay comes out..and i sure hopefully it does get in..hehe..if not then we'll just chill..that'll be cool too..well...better take a shower and go check my pay if i wanna know..be bloggin..

13 sept..

2005-09-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

helooo..wow...it's been like 4 months that i last blogged..aida is finally out of my head..not too heart broken..but got over it well..was suprised actually..after all the 'pouring out my heart to her', i wasn't too heartbroken..maybe i didn't love her that much to be broken hearted..but don't get me wrong..i didn't start to blog because i finally got over her..i got over it a few weeks ago..because starting today..i'm a free man until 13 september..because as of 13 september..i'll be an NS men..hahaha...it's true..i'm going NS soon..going into Civil Defense..play with water..hahahha..anyways..i thought i'd blog before going out..later going to my cousin's to do some errands for her mom who is my aunt..hehe..life is great..full of suprises...and i do mean full...now..i realise something that i myself cannot believe..hard to believe but true..so unbelievable that it's better left unsaid..it's better that way for me and her i suppose..anyways i don't wanna be the guy who cuts in and takes out..and furthermore on a friend..whom i knew before her..i love her..but sacrificing my happiness for a friend is the best solution..hehe...so emo sia diq..hahaha...lets blog about the plans i'm having for the last week of ENJOYMENT..hahaha..for today and tomorrow..no plans yet..7th and 8th going to jb..taking a looksee at the new house my mom recently bought..9th having a birthday party at j8 i think..with some of my work friends..gonna catch a movie on the 10th with my dad..double checking on the things to bring on the 13th..then saying farewell and taking care to chot..love you...and to the rest of my cousins and family members..love you all...so sad..hahaha..it's not like i'm not coming back..i'll be back after 2 weeks..and i'll be out after P.O.P and i'll be free after 2 years..hahaha...guess i'm stop here..be bloggin tomorrow..for sure!

weird feelings..

2005-06-15T02:20:00.000+08:00

weird feelings...weird feelings towards this particular girl....i don't get it...do i like her or not..am i so bored that i'm starting to like her?or do i have real feelings for her?sometimes i care for her..but other times i couldn't care less..sometimes i'll miss her..but other times i'd go 'who?'..this girl is my ex for dunno how many long years ago..we were together for a month then broke up for some stupid reason..right now..i'm feeling nothing for her..weird?..i know i liked her before..i've missed her before..i'm guessing it's just a fling..damn..maybe because..i've confessed my feelings for her..but she was taking it like a joke..couldn't care less i suppose..so i'm giving up?...hmmmm..let it go i guess..just let her go...honestly not the right time for me to have a girl..it won't last..i guess..nah..i know i cannot have a serious relationship now..i just need a companion..like my godsis...no strings attached..i think for the time being..i just need her right now..love you chot..to my girl cousins..these doesn't mean i don't need you guys..you know i love you guys..

it's been a while....

2005-06-08T01:29:00.000+08:00

hello again..been busy lately..didn't even have time to finish my 2nd part of the ubin trip..haha..now is already 8 of june..my ex's birthday...happy birthday to you...the ubin trip was 28 march...almost 3 months ago...hehehe..so looonngg...hahahaha...busy with what?..the usual stuffs...family..school..work..friends..right now...only busy with work...i don't work 24/7 but whenever i'm not working..i'd go out...never at home...only in the wee hours...hehe..even my mom's been complaining to me.. mom said, "when you're not working..you go out.if not,you work..i seldom see you at home..only at night..in the midnight..when i usually sleep..nowadays,we seldom sit down and talk.take off la one day..stay at home..don't go out.accompany me." ...sad huh??..i'll try mom..i'll try...life has been quite exciting nowadays..made friends here n there..kinda cool though...made friends with older peepz..older female peepz..hiak hiak..long story short...they're one of my ex's aunties..hahahah...honestly didn't know at first...we hung out a few times..played some pool..chilled at esplanade...it's okay la..why do i have the time to blog now?..hmm...well today..i feel like blogging..as tomorrow i'm not working..going out yes but in the afternoon...around 4...have to do some errands before that..some people are going to look at my house..hafta make my house clean..my mom does the cleaning..i just hafta look after my sister..my mom wanna sell it..the flat i mean...hehe...i feel sad for two person right now...one is my brother..the other is my cousin...i'ma stop here..gotta post a comment...cya ard...

Ubin Trip pt.1

2005-03-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

last week..on the 25th,26th & 27th of march 2005..me and maman went to ubin...camping...wanna see how it feels like in the great outdoors...it was fun..thrilling...great...enjoyed alot..although it was only the two of us...actually there would have been a lot of people going...most the my underblock friends...a total of 12 i think..more then 10 la when we planned the thing...when we got to the day itself...only two people left...hahaha...what the heck...just go laa..i've bought the things already..shouldn't wasted my father's time if in the end we ended up not going...part 2 later...hafta go toa payoh with my mom...be bloggin....

today.

2005-03-22T03:57:00.000+08:00

today was fun..hehe...smile alot...laugh alot....did things alot...alot ar...hahaha...woke up late...at 1450...hahaha...working at 4...basically i wasn't late for work but i was late to wake up...suppose to wake up at 12...so that i can selow-ly wake up...selow-ly take a shower...selow-ly eat...but since i woke up at 1450...went straight to the toilet...took my shower...change then went to work...like very rushing...no time to relax...i hate that...doing things at the last minute...but never mind laa...at least i had enough time to go to work selow-ly...hahaha....on the way there inside the mrt...nurul called me up..told me to see him at bishan mrt...he's already there...FUCKING HELL....so early sia...hahahha...then we went to work together...got in and started working...from the start we were laughing and chatting...when there was no customer ar...it'll be very rude talking when serving them....hehe....it's great having our own friends working together....very fun...hehe...friends that we always meet up...chill out...stay nearby...depends on what type of friends ar...but most of my friends are cool...hehehe...thats what i think laa...don't know about you guys....but i think it's cool...not working on tuesday...that's today...so basically what i told y'all just now was yesterday's news...hahahha...wanna sleePANG...need rest before going out...hehee...be bloggin..

m.i.s.s.y.o.u.

alas..a critic in the mist....

2005-03-20T04:03:00.000+08:00

alas..a critic in the mist...hehehe...thank you for telling me about the font...i've changed it...hopefully others can see well now..hehee...i'm so sorry to those who had the same problem... c",) i've updated some new pictures..including the pit i had last saturday(12 march 2005)..a friend of mine took pictures in his digicam and send it to me...and thank you syuhaidah for the remaining pictures...love ya....thats all i guess..just blog to inform y'all that the pictures are up...hehehe....

WARNING: Pictures may upset one's stomach upon seeing.

it's just a warning..see it if y'all want....be bloggin..miss you mimi......

miss me??

2005-03-19T04:59:00.000+08:00

i miss someone..but that someone don't miss me..hahaha...never mind...anyways...i just finished updating my template..hehehe...added an alert box..added some javascript..hehe...wanna add some more things...but what to add...what to edit...what to do...so so so buntuh...hehehe...my holiday has started...working from monday to thursday..mon,wed and thurs working night shift...tues ask for morning shift..hehe...gotta go out tuesday afternoon...hehehe...friday to sunday take leave...going to pulau ubin...me and my underblock friends...gonna be a blast at there...can't wait...hehehe..so pack my schedule..but i'll always have time for you... c",) ..that's it...be bloggin..

ooo..

2005-03-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

i just woke up...damn...didnt go to school today...what the fuck...never mind laa..might as well go to work...honestly i don't know what time i'm working..hehehe...never mind...can find out later...for now...i wanna bathe...then eat...oi mimi!aku rindu ko laa..hehe..be bloggin..

fun at the beach..again

2005-03-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeee...just got back from the beach...it's a park actually...at marina south...i think it's called marina park...issit?yarh,i think so...never mind about the name...the park was great...it was like beach...only cleaner...seriously...it was clean...there were rocks which we could sit on by the bay....it was cooling...very windy...very nice....a great romantic getaway for those romantic couples...hehe....wish i could have one....haven't really had someone that i could share my solitude with....i've always pictured sitting with that special someone by the bay on the rocks feeling the cool breeze against our faces while that special someone just lie her head on my shoulder then i'll just lie my cheek on her head appreciating mother nature...i guess thats my dream...yarh...that is my dream...i have had experience it before but only with my friends and family...anyways..the place is great...the place that i work for had a little gathering called 'beach day'..meant for both thomson & junction 8 KFC staffs...the bus departed at thomson around 5plus..reached there and prepared the stuffs...we had games and activities..food...loadsa food...after that we just chilled and relax...enjoy the atmosphere around us...it was cool...my team got the 2nd prize for the games...we won snacks...shared amongst ourselves...after that me, maman and amin sat by the bay on the rocks..the wind was great...did i mention that already...hahaha...sorry,must've been too great i suppose...then the bus came again at 10plus..stopped us at thomson again then we went our separate ways..how i wish we could have more great outings again like just now...heeee..be bloggin

fun at the beach..

2005-03-13T13:54:00.000+08:00

wheeeee...feeling exhausted..tired...restless...but not sleepy...WHAT THE FUCK?!..okok..i've told y'all about the pit i'm having on the 12th of march..which was yesterday...here's what happen yesterday..in the morning i slept..hehe..instead of helping my mom..hehe..so bad...i woke up at 12..haven't bath then i had to send "shoes" to him..DAMN!!..just woke up..havent bathe then had to send the "shoes"..after that..i bathe..helped my mom abit...then got ready..waited for my dad to fetch us then send us there..we brought ALOTTA stuffs...from food to utensils..charcoals..drinks...more food...hahahhah..unfortunately,the onli available double pit is..pit 19...which far from the shops..toilets..DAMN!!..but it's okay..fathien,syuhaidah and rifkah came first..hahahah..i'm the host and they came first...so paisey....then anga set the fire..ash played the guit..we talked..sang..had our meals first while waiting for the rest..people started coming at 5plus i think...amazingly..6kg of chicken..6 packets of nuggets..15 packets of hotdog and a full tray of fried rice FINISHED before 10...hahahahhh....should've bought more food but we were low on budget...we had the extra cash...but it's meant for that day...in case we need anything else...and we did...how fortunate...hehehehe...ash's friends who are also my friends came...my school friends came..my cousins came..my kampong friends came..my colleagues came..alotta people came...imagine how busy i was...entertaining people that just came...FUYOO!!...damn busy....and i just realise..i didn't eat much..had a few nuggets..ate abit of fried rice..a couple of hotdogs...but alotta drinks...hahahahh..but it was cool...getting together..having fun..it was GREAT..hehe...not all my friends could come but it's okay...to the people whom i invited and couldn't make it......y'all missed a whole lotta fun...hehehe...and great food...anga marinated the best chicken...hehee...don't know what it's called though...but nice...very nice...after all that fun and excitement..the rest left in the morning...me,chot and nabil slept in the tent...i woke up when i felt the heat and when i could see the sun shining on me with my eyes close...so hott...then we all woke up...packed..and went home...got home at 12plus..ash got home earlier because he went home first..duh~...hahahahh...it's a pity that i couldn't take any pictures there as my digicam is with my friend's teacher..WHAT THE FUCK IS MY FUCKING STUFF WHICH I FUCKING BORROWED TO HIM IS FUCKING DOING WITH HIS FUCKING TEACHER?!..never mind la..just fucking hope that i'll fucking get it on monday...but now..im starting to feel hungry...so hungry.....ima look for food now...be bloggin

bz bz bz bz bz bz bz.....

2005-03-10T02:22:00.000+08:00

this few days has been such a busy week for me..been doing alotta planning....been doing alotta thinking...been doing alotta errands...it's pass 1 am so its thursday..yesterday,i went to school...went to collect "shoes"..then went home...change my clothes then went out again to buy the other stuff with my mum...after that's done..went home to put the groceries..then i went out again...supposely going bedok with my godsis to take the utensils from her god mother after buying a new line with handphone but didn't have enough time to do that so we only bought the handphone....hahahah..she bought a Sony Ericsson K500i with a Starhub PowerValue 100 plan..i think i'll be buying the same..hehe....then we went home..sent her home and headed my way back too...what?..you think i just came back?..hahah..i'm blogging now because i was busy editing my blog template...added a few pictures...editing some links..changed the tagboard because doodleboard isn't free no more...and i just finished..about 20 minutes ago...before that i went to grab something to eat..hehehe....cant blame me...i'm HUNGRY!!!.....alright..i'm done blogging..be bloggin..

fucking shit!..

2005-03-04T02:39:00.000+08:00

damn..thought of sleeping just now..but had to compress my mp3 to wma format..make it a smaller format so i can put in more music..hehe..smooth huh?...hahahah...anyways..now i have 145 tracks inside..hahaha..separated in 5 folders...'Anyhow'..'LocalScene'..'MyKindOfBeat'..'PopJazzReggae'.. and 'RapHipHopR&B'...hehehe....'Anyhow' has songs like covers,soundtracks,oldies,themes,malay..'LocalScene' has music from some of my underblock friends and some local bands and singers..'MyKindOfBeat' is made up of oi,punk,ska,emo,rock..music i usually listen to..hehe..'PopJazzReggae' has pop,jazz and reggae...hahah...'RapHipHopR&B' has rap,hiphop and r&b...like duh~...hahahahahah..anyways..my mp3 player has 128mb only..heeee...at first i thought of buying an ipod but...i can't afford it and really needed one...hehe...but this one is fine...when i have enough money then i'll buy an ipod..but for now...i'm aiming for a hp first...hehehe...kla..FUCKING WANNA SLEEP NOW..FUCKING DON'T DISTURB..FUCK OFF!!..hehe...that's my nick on msn..hahahah..be FUCKING bloggin..

mmkay..

2005-03-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

morning people!..a beautiful morning it is..i just woke up..just finished my shower..damn..gotta blast..meeting my sister now..going to poly..polyclinic..be bloggin..

mmm....

2005-02-26T03:47:00.000+08:00

didn't have enough time to blog yesterday afternoon after prayers..after prayers,we didn't eat because ash had to go back to school straight away for a common test..then i broke the news to my dad..and yes..my dad gave me a good lecturing..i deserve it for sure.. "dick,you seriously have to fucking buck up!!" ..haha.... "still can fucking laugh some more?!" ..hahahahah...damn..this entry is bored..hahahaha..nothing exciting happen to me...i don't even have any interesting lies to tell y'all today...hehehe..i guess i'ma sleep laa..tired..quite feverish..but warm..and mostly SLEEPY!!!..swit drimz y'all..swit drimz mimi..be bloggin

boredom..

2005-02-25T12:55:00.000+08:00

woke up in the weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee morning..woke up at 0700..sat down for awhile..went in the toilet at 0730..smoked,shit,bathe...changed then went to school..reached school at 0815..waited for a friend..kevin..he came at 0835..went to the canteen..ate wanton mee..hehe..suddenly my class advisor asked us to take the bus now..so i quickly finish my food..went there and guess what the fuck just happen...the bus left..it fucking left without us...the whole of us...fuck the hell up...hahahah..so we ended up going home instead..it was actually a trip to dover ite..there's an open house there..the class monitor called up the teacher..then he(the class monitor) said that we can go home laready...so we did..me and kev chilled for awhile..smoked then went our separate ways..this is just the beginning of the day..later i'm meeting my dad..gonna break the news to him...about my poor attendance..imagine 2 warning letters in a 3 days...what the fuck right...hahahah..be bloggin..

fucked up..

2005-02-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

FUCKED UP!!!...FUCK THE HELL UP!!!!..shit happens..almost every FUCKING day..can't upload the music to my site...don't know whether my comp is the faulty one or the web..then a friend called just now..hes in trouble but i cant help him..today was dull..tomorrow DULLER as i don't think i'll be going out..one by one..shitty things happen..one after another..things that make me feel lousy..FUCKING LOUSY...what next?cigarette price gonna go up 20%?..wait..it already has...STUPID SHIT!!!!
well..maybe i can do the music some other day..help my friend some other time..shoot some pool with my sis..and buy cigarettes when i have the money or i could just quit..hehe...i'ma smoke and think...then bathe and go out..anywhere but here...by the way..the music that i'ma upload is nice.. c",)..be bloggin....

early post..

2005-02-22T05:52:00.000+08:00

ooOOoOooOoOOOoo...such an early entry..hehehe....ive just noticed that i spelled cigarette wrongly...hahahha...suppose to be ciGarette..not ciGGarette...hahahha...what the fuck man shadiq..hahahaha..change of plans though..shifted the previous template to the left..and thought of putting the pictures..music..and lyrics to the right..hehe..shifted them already but not yet fill in the blanks..ignore the writings on the right..i wrote those to remind me what to do the next time i feel like blogging..now feeling tired because haven't slept since yesterday morning..DAMN!....went home late yesterday after work as i had to meet up with my godsis to discuss about something and then my friend ,ruz, wanted to download some more songs into his mp3..haha..only manage to download 8 out of 10 of the songs he wanted..while waiting for the downloading..might as well i update my blog...hehehehe...now that i'm done..i'ma rest..not sleep...but rest...although feeling sleepy right now,i hafta stay awake..only a few more hours to school...if i sleep,i don't think i can wake up...hahahaha...nemind...can take a quick nap in class for awhile...heeee..kla...wanna upload the songs to the mp3 then rest then bathe then go to school...
be bloggin...

yay!

2005-02-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

i'ma treat myself with a cigarette...why you ask?..because i edited my blog template and VOILA!..it looks nicer right this way?..hehe...i should praise myself because i'm such a BLUR SOTONG at this kinda things..my 2nd brother is usually the expert..hehehe..wait ar..i wanna light my ciggie...for the nice bloggie..hehehe....smoking marlboro red..aahhh..ciggarettes in singapore have FUCKING increase by 20 % huh?..marlboro is now $11 and i'm still buying it..hahaha..at this rate..i'ma go bankrupt just on ciggarettes...hahahaha...but don't be fooled..i bought this at malaysia..hehehe..now that im 19..i can bring ciggie in singapore..but limited only..so i won't be smoking much..thats a good thing though..if i don't smoke often..i wont feel like smoking more often...and with that..i can stop..YAY!..hopefully ar..hehehe....now that i've partly edited my template..i'm only left with pictures to decorate..and music for ambience..hehe...thinking of changing to an emo song...or anything nice....a lightbulb just lighted over my head..*bang*...adui...it fell...damn...nemind...i can put the lyrics at the blank space and a picture on top of it...wheeeeeeeeeeee...suddenly i'm so full of ideas...hehehehe...*jgn kembang ar diq..plabuto ko*..hahahaha..but for now..i'ma sleep laa..tired...tomorrow schooling at 10..must wake up at 8...swit drimz y'all...be bloggin....

wow!

2005-02-17T16:34:00.000+08:00

waahh..so long never blog..and suddenly im like a newbie here..hahaha...the last time i blogged during the month of november...and now it's february...how time flies when your comp and modem is fucked up...yesh..my modem was spoilt then my comp kept hanging..too much memory ar..MUST reformat one day...one day ar but not today..uncertain of when but not today..hehe..today...not working..not going out..just wanna rest at home..laze around..oh yarh,i just changed my skin..not 100% done ar but the tagboard's there..profile's there...only thing is pictures..music's there too..like i said i wanna laze around and rest..but first,EAT!..be bloggin..

slmt rayer...

2004-11-29T05:38:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.....hehehee..yesh..i know..i'ma bit late on wishing y'all muslims a selamat dari raya...but it's better to be late then never..hehe..haven't been so actively blogging these few weeks...why?never had enough free time to blog...why?been busy with the usual excuses...work,friends,family,school..heheh..i got debarred..sadness...hopefully i can defer my NS and repeat another 6 months in ITE..hehehe..hopefully..why do i have time to blog now?hehe..because i'm not feeling that tired..i blog..hehe..anyways i went out with my cousins last saturday..had a BLAST..not like last time..but it was fun....hehehe..i've uploaded the pictures..take a look please..hehe...thank you very nice...i don't have much to blog about..it's getting quite boring reading my postings...hahaha...i'ma stop here...hoping to have something interesting to blog about...be blogging.......

slmt berpuasa!

2004-10-28T02:38:00.000+08:00

lately..i've been coming home late...latenights...very late...like 3-4 in the morning late...hehe...late huh?honestly been treating my house like a hotel...'checking in checking out' as and when i please...i'm changing from bad to worst to worseness...if there is such a word..haha!...see?i can still laugh at a time like this...wheeeeee...so happy yet so gloomy...suppose to be slowing down on cigarettes because of the fasting period but i'm getting heavier...what the fuck!...haha....
"shadiq!you better change!"...been neglecting school for work...what a waste..no work no money...i know...but in singapore...no cert no career...a job maybe..a career...uncertain...
"oi shithead!if you think that way..why don't you just change?"change...an easy word to say...impossible to accomplish...with an attitude like mine..i can never change...bit by bit yes...but until when?i dunno...hehe....
"such low self-esteem...none at all"....true true...hehee...so i'm signing off now...sahur pagi,puase lagi,buke kfc...hiak hiak...be bloggin........

long days long nights....

2004-10-27T05:38:00.000+08:00

someone once told me ,'kalo org da dgr jiwang bley buat pe?dgrkn suda.' HAHAHA..and that was what i did..now...i listen to emo malay too...hiak hiak...it's okla...some of the songs are quite nice...meaningful lyrics..soothing music...it's okla...since i often listen to ska emo,pop emo,punk emo, all sorts of emo...might as well listen to malay emo laa...hehe...never knew i'd be listening to a malay group that i once dissed so badly...new boyz...hahahahahaha...sad but TRUE...but only to 1 song..meraung...malay rocknroll ain't that bad either..heee...jiwang...never honestly imagined of listening but then again...i listen to it anyways..i think it was fairuz(my underblock friend) who said sarcasticly ,'ingatkn bdk tu tk dgr jiwang...tersangkut plak..da pandai nyanyi pn..hahaha.' what can i honestly say?..people change...but one thing for sure is...techno..will NEVER be a music interest to me...NEVER!...hehe.eh eh..kok ketawer..hiak hiak..subuh da lepas...time to fast..be getting ready for school in an hour's time..
so...............................................better be doing something so as not to feel sleepy..slmt!
be bloggin....

work....

2004-09-24T01:42:00.000+08:00

hmm..nowadays..the environment in my workplace is getting more dull...the staffs are great...the customers are fine...but the manager has one screwed up attitude..it wants us to be happy at the customers..but won't let us be happy with each other..we can't laugh..we can't have fun once in a while...we can't chat while doing our work...even if we're at the back...where the customers can't see us...where's the positive thinking?where's the team spirit?the happy environment that was once there in my workplace has now vanished since it came along...i honestly thought of finding a new job..but my father won't let me work unless they serve halal food...so i guess i'll just have to bear with my current job until i get fired...hehe...i'm predicting that it'll be very soon...put yourself in my shoes..being nagged at while doing your work...while serving the customer...how do you expect me do it well?you tell me...have patience?be calm?hah!they don't pay me enough for me to listen to naggings...my grandmother is better than it...hahahaha....anyways,i got about 2 more months left..serving ns pretty soon...i think...i've thought about it...i'ma quit on the december holidays..hia hia hia...my entries are getting boring...i'm starting to blog about work...haiyoh...i'ma sleep now...gotta wake up early for school...hehe..be blogging.....

juz to blog...

2004-09-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

long time never blog...why?because i have nothing to blog...nothing interesting on my mind right now...nothing interesting happening in my life...whats interesting?interesting is something that inspires me to write...write about it on my blog...to let people know what has happen in my life...whats going on inside my mind...inspires me to write about the people around me...the environment...inspires me to write what i'm thinking about...but right now..honestly...i have nothing to write...i'm only blogging because someone asked why i never blog..i told that i'll be blogging about the malaysia trip but i didn't...sorry...isn't my little sister the cutest thing?...hehehehe....be blogging...soon i guess......

people change...so do i...hehee

2004-09-07T02:18:00.000+08:00

people say i'm changing...that i'm different...different like last time...i don't know how different because i heard this from my god sis...they asked her...why am so different from last time?but they never say how different...in what way am i different from last time?i told her maybe because i am starting to talk back...like speak up...be loud...not letting them walk over me...ever again!...hahaha...maybe thats the reason...hehe...maybe laa...or maybe because i seldom hang out nowadays...seldom chill with them for long hours...seldom talk...always quiet nowadays when meeting them...what to do...the only sure time that i can see them is when i get back from work...and when you get back from work...you'll definitely be tired right?never mind laa...people change...no ones perfect...i'ma stop here...be bloggin'.....

bout today

2004-08-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

ok...about today..basically my friend is reporting to ns 1 september so he thought of going out with his friends for the last time...that is until he has to report in laa...anyways..he did asked me to skip school to join him and some of my secondary school friends to feast and maybe hang out but because of my attendance...i can't afford to skip school...so i only joined him at night...we played pool...i like pool...i love pool...but it's a pity i can't always play pool...hehe...it's been quite a long time since i've played pool but i had fun...then my friend had to go off first...so i'm only left with the rest of the gang...we played for almost 2 hours...a good game indeed...thinking of a rematch again...hehehe...when i have the money laa...honestly...i don't think this is interesting...so i'ma stop here...hoping for a more interesting post next time...hehehe...be bloggin'...

sumtimes....

2004-08-29T04:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes....i feel like i have nothing left to do in this world...like there's no use...some of the things i'm doing are for nothing!...whats the use of studying if i know i won't pay attentionso me say to study to get good grades so that i can find a job easier...thats a good reason...but honestly...i'm useless..so i know for sure i won't be able to find a stable job...whats the use of having a relationship when i know it won't last...some say to have a long term relationship..i must have commitment...why must i commit now when i'm still young?some say to commit is to love and to love...there's a possibility that if i am married to the girl i love..the marriage will last...but then again...like i said...i know for sure i won't be able to find a stable job...with no stable job...how can i support a family?i don't want to be a burden to anyone...ok...so if i don't find a stable job..will i still stay with my parents?yesh but i won't be burden as i will pay share the bill too...i won't be a burden that way...unless they don't like the idea...i will move out...whats the use of listening when i myself have no one to turn to.....except my family laa...but if you're in a case like me...who seldom sees their cousins...who seldom talk to your parents...reasons are not because you're not close but because you're always busy...and mostly...it's friends that you're always with..be it school friends or work friends...get the picture?whats the use of quiting smoking when i no i will die one day...could be tomorrow but who knows..some say to quit so that i won't die faster...hmm...i wouldn't be smoking one day and then BANG!...a car knocked me down and i died on the spot...whats the use?some say to quit so that my breath won't stink...my teeth won't yellow...my lips won't blacken...so?people can criticise whatever they want to...it's their mouth...not mine...what can i possibly do if people hate me?change?haha!i am who i am...and that is what makes us human beings unique...i'll do what i can and i'll be what i am...an average teenage guy who slacks...amongst the people i noe...i'm the slackiest...hahaha...slackiest?is there such a word?anyways...whats the point of having a blog when i'm always writing nonsense?...i'ma sleep laa...and forget about everything i thought about.....and have sweet dreams...this is the life of a negative thinker....be bloggin'....

blank

2004-08-26T19:51:00.000+08:00

hmm..i'm starting to be my old lazy self once more..starting to slack in school..being my old crazy self in school...never doing anything in school...go to school...go to class...but sleep in class instead of jotting down the things written on the whiteboard or doing whatever experiments the teacher is asking us to do...i guess i'm not cut out to have a stable job...a family...a wife...some kids...not ut out at all...how am i going to have all those if i can't even support myself...i totally deserve this for slacking too much...hahaha..i can still laugh at a time like this?...hmm...at a time like what exactly?..hahahaha...slacking..........slacking my life away...awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy...doing nothing much but smoke,eat,drink,bath,slack.....a boooooooooooooooooooorreeee...a totaaaaaaaalll booooooooooooooooooorreee...thats what...i'ma start blogging again...so i have more things to do other then smoke,eat,drink,bath,slack...hahahaha...i'ma do something else laa...nothing much happen to me today....tatatititutu...be bloggin'......

slmt berpuasa!

2004-08-26T19:36:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!

2004-08-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!...after weeks of busy-ness..i've FINALLY got the time to blog...HAHA!...since i was so busy...i didn't even have time to see chot(god-sis)..it was on a sunday..15 august..not working on that day too..hehe...went to her house..and was suprise to know that some of my underblock friends were there...haha..long time never see them too...we talked...then went out to eat...then went back to chot's house again...talked again...haha...weeks of not seeing each other...we sure chatted alot...hahahaha...soooooooo many thing s to tell her...ask her...haha...soooooo many...she too has sooooo many things to tell...but mostly...she was doing all the telling and i was asking...hahaha...miss her laa..cannot blame me...haaha..i went home around 9 i think...i started blogging now because kEi was using it...anyways...i wanna find more time to update my blog...i can't change the template because i don't know how to...the pictures...the song...i know....hmmmm...the color?..i'll try laa...life has been weird..syaf is no longer my girl...i'm a jerk...I KNOW!...hate me please!...haha!,,,people nowadays call me mat malaysia...hahaha...because of what i wear...haha..kla kla...long time no blog...i'm starting to blog nonsense...hahah...good night everyone...i'm a start changin' the pictures...be blogging...urm..soon...i guess...hahaha....

way to go!!!...hahahaha

2004-08-03T16:57:00.000+08:00

the reason i haven't been blogging these is because i'm repenting...hahaha...i can say that i'm changing...into a better....into worse...a little bit of both laa...hahaha...i'm attending class now..after 1 month...hahaha...why dick?why have you become like this?...hahaha...i went to school...wit no books...nor pen...or any paper...the going to school is good...the not bringing any writing paper is bad...hahaha..one more worse thing...i'm neglecting everyone around me...we talk...we chat...we joke...we had fun...that is if we meet...other then that...i juz sit at home..watch tv...eat...or just sleep...peer pressure?nah...i don't think so...exhausted?yes...during the 1 month i didn't go to school...i worked..after work...chilled with my frenz til the early morning...then the next day work again...tired...exhausted...PENAT!...hahaha...i need rest...sleep is good...but i have to go out and fix my roster...maybe after i eat..n bath...and find a cigarette...i want to shit but i got no cigarette...smoking...it's that i can't quit...i don't want to quit...don't tag why...i guess i'll go take a shower now...i stink...then shit...hopefully i'll find one...ouh yarh...iwebmusic is back...yippee...be blogging soon...

nuthin' 2 write...honestly...

2004-07-29T03:00:00.000+08:00

i haf nuthin' 2 blog honestly...blog bout my day?...hahaha...my day was same-o-boring2...hahaha...a normal...didn't go 2 skool...went 2 work...go back sleep...same-o-boring2...hmmmm...nuthin' 2 blog about...nuthin' 2 do...might as well smoke den go 2 sleep...gotta go 2 skool later cuz i haf project...hehe...hmmm...i'm finsihin' my skool this year n i'm skippin' class regularly...wat the fuck...wats da poitn of my parents payin' me 2 go 2 skool if i dun show any fucking effort...hahaa...i can still laugh in situations like dis...haf fun...joke ard...chill wit frenz...stay up late at nite...work hard but study not hard enuf...hahaha...'keje kears tapi skola malas'...hahahakkzz...a useless bum...dats wat i'ma grow up 2 be...but...killing oneself is not an option...hahaha...a burden i will be 2 my parents...my siblings...my relatives...my frenz...hahaha...a burden...but killing oneself is not an option...remember dat kids...hahahaha...wats da point of killing oneself?...hahaha...no point...u still go 2 hell....hahahah...wats da use?...no use...u still go 2 hell...not everyone goes 2 heaven first...one must be pure heart 2 be in heaven...
when a sin is done..
then you're done...
to hell you go..
to heaven..nono...
haha...i'm rhymin' crap...i'ma smoke while i shit den off 2 bed n sleep...hehe....be bloggin' soon...

wats 2 bcome of myself?

2004-07-27T13:26:00.000+08:00

wats 2 bcome of myself?..i've not gone 2 skool 4 da past 3 weeks!...wat the fuck?!...haha...can still laugh?...hahaha...i guess i'ma grow up being a useless bum working as a road sweeper along woodlands street...being paid wen i do work...hahaha...i'm stating da fact..fact of my future...my future life..being a bum is hard...yeah...now..it cud be easy as i live wit my parents...but wen i move out...how am i gonna find a job?..a decent one...a stable one...a long term job...mebbe i shud work at kfc all my life...until da day i die...bcome a manager der mebbe...hahaha...or better...bcome a CEO...hahaha...great diq...juz great...wats 2 bcome of myself?..shud i carry on like this?...we'll see...i'm still sick...not feeling too gud though...i tink i'ma die of smokin' too much...ouh....dat reminds me...gotta buy me some cigarettes...calo!...be bloggin' soon...

tak sedap badan ah...

2004-07-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

i juz woke up...yesterday was Putri's b-day...juz my luck..i turned out 2 be sick...shit!...i enjoyed a lil' but i had 2 rest after dat..nemind..we went 2 east coast 4 our bday picnic...searched 4 a shelter n got it...haha..settled down..ate some breakfast..den..da real food came...hahaha...i ate once...da food was excellent...it's a pity dat i was sick...if not...i'd eat non-stop...wahahha..after my meal i went 2 sit at da stones...smoked..haha..sick but can still smoke...wat the fuck la diq...hahaha..after dat i slept...switched off my hp as i dun wanna be disturbed...den sleep...woke up at 6 plus i think...switched on my hp...2 peepz msg-ed me...haha...wen i woke up...it was oreadi time 2 pack up...hehe..we went off at ard 7 plus...took a taxi..got home...thot of usin' da comp but my bro's usin'...nemind...here's a pic of putri under da shelter...

haha...cute huh?...hehehe...my music's down at da moment...haha..if u refresh my page u'll hear nuthin' but silence...hehe...i'm still sick n i haven't bathe...hahaha...be bloggin' soon...

further n further apart yarh?

2004-07-24T03:46:00.000+08:00

we are growing further n further apart...with skool n work n family..we'll see how it goes den...neways..me n my mom went out..syaf couldn't come...it's okay..so we went 2 orchard first..2 isetan..wahaha..couldn't find da soft toy barney dat putri wanted...so i bought a different one instead...n a pooh bear...wahaha..after dat..we went 2 the concourse..bought goodies n a barney balloon...wahhaa..bought soup tulang along beach road n went home wit a cab...den we went bs...aida was working..sent her home..chill downstairs 4 awhile n i'm blogging now...hahakz...lame sial diq...gettin' lamer n lamer...wahaha...i got a spot da diff pic...actually spot da odd...haha...take a look...see if u can spot it...

be bloggin' soon....

new girl in town...

2004-07-21T01:01:00.000+08:00

hmm...a new girl in town...actually two...one is aida's(my co-worker) fren n the other one..who cares...hahakz...i'm guessing dat y'all dunno wat i'm talkin' about...wahaha..aida recommended a fren of hers into my workplace...understand?wahaha..neways..wat do y'all think of sushi?..me?i think it's nice..but i long time no eat no sushi...hahakz...i guess i neva found da time 2 buy sushi...let alone think of buyin'...mebbe i'll buy on friday...ouh yarh...on friday...me,syaf,my mom n putri r goin' out 2 buy putri's b-day present...YAY!...4 more days 2 go til putri's b-day...wheeeeeeee...can't wait...i'll be sure 2 update pics...hehe...i haf nuthin' 2 write...hehe...so here's a pic of bob marley smoking weed...hehe..be bloggin' soon...

pnat...

2004-07-20T01:46:00.000+08:00

slept late yesterday...slept at 6 plus yesterday morning..haiyohh...woke up at 8..slept again..woke up at 10..slept again den woke up at 11...didn't sleep again..took a shower...had my lunch..n went 2 skul...i'm bcomin' more n more slacker in my studies...while others were studyin'...i was makin' straw hearts..wahaha..WATS UP WIT U DIQ?U WANNA GET DEBARRED OR SUMTHIN' HUH?<-conscience talkin'...whahaha..well..i dunno y i'm actin' dis way...since i failed my paper in da first term on my first yr...i've been more n more n more n more n more n more...useless...wahahhaa..lazy?hmm..feel dat way too..hahaha..nvm bout dat...i was dead tired but i didn't sleep in class...y didn't i sleep in class?i find it odd actually..normally i'd sleep in this particular teacher's lesson...but i didn't n furthermore i was dead tired..PNAT..aahh..fuck it!..after skul went straight to work..we were short of staff as one of my co-worker sabo-ed us...cibai!...fuck laa...nvm...brought food home 4 chot..my god-sis...my onli god-sis actually..honestly..wats da point of havin' sooooo many god-sis wen u seldom see dem?...hmm?nak jadi famous pe?...wahahaha...i'm bein' ridiculous...neways...chot hasn't eaten much juz now..she onli ate super ring..as there was no real food at her house...so i brought her food..wahaha..brought her favourite...cheese...wahahaha...after finished eatin'...talked a bit den went home as me n ash r skoolin' later...now here i am bloggin'...after this i'ma smoke...i'ma smoke!...be bloggin' soon...ouhh..here's a cool pic...

Pariah(n; social outcast)

2004-07-19T04:56:00.000+08:00

pariah..a powerful film..amazing..riveting..mesmerising..courageous..well crafted..strongly acted..horrifyingly accurate..astonishing..wahahaha...'a clockwork orange' for the nineties..wahaha..a movie bout nazi skins..kinda nice...da show i mean...a long time since i've touched da comp..made some adjustments..new song on blog...new lyrics(like duh~)..hahaha..new recent picture..checkered...wahaha..same old me..haha..LAME..neways..take a look at this..

haha..for those who noe...look familiar?..wahaha...i was making straw hearts n i had 2 cut away da excess parts..my frenz..being da 'experienced' ones..took those excess parts n did dat..wahaha..wat the fuck sial..this r are da straw hearts i made...

i haf more..but wanna make summore...ben(my co-worker) taught aida who den taught me...wahaha..but i end up teachin' myself a bit...wahaha..but thanx 2 aida also laa...neways it's nearly 5 in da morn n i'm awake..wahaha..wanna take a nap..wake up at 8 or 9 den go 2 skul..wahaha..MORNING!..be bloggin' soon....

long time....

2004-07-16T02:01:00.000+08:00

so long neva blog..haha..onli 2 days...as if people read this shit...wahaha..it's been a while since i've written any poems..well..not poems actually..they're rhymes..more like nursery rhymes...wahaha..wanna see a rhyme?..kinda..hmm..judge it urself laa...

BREAKING UP!
terms on how to break up with a girl.
talk to her slowly and try not to quarrel.
she might break down when you're talking,
that this relationship is never working.
maybe..try putting all the blame on you,
perhaps then..she won't feel so blue.
most girls are sensitive about this matter.
just tell her that "this is for the better?"
the truth is what she would want to hear,
but it is also something that she would fear.
"can we still be friends?"..ask her that,
she might stay and think that it's phat...
but if she walks away not turning back,
then...FUCK HER!...you're better than that.
be true..tell her that it's not meant to be..
and be hopeful that she might agree..
if not then....let it be....

kinda corny huh?..wahaha...wat u expect?it's a nursery rhyme...muahahaha...i did sumthin' 2 a pic..

muahaha..cool huh?..it's amazing wat u can do in a computer nowadays...wahaha..be bloggin' soon...

a week huh?...seems like a month.....

2004-07-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

hmmm...a week without internet...let alone wit no games installed inside my comp...so bored..all i could do was phlog on my blog...at least it was sumthin'...other den dat...i juz did MORE watchin' tv..MORE lepak-ing with my frenz...MORE...hmmm...i dunno...hmmm..suddenly..i dun feel like bloggin' rite now..i'm kinda watchin' '10 things i hate about you'...it's kinda cool..to me laa...to y'all...i dunno laa...aight den...be bloggin' soon...

frqakin'

2004-07-08T20:51:00.000+08:00

2ND ENTRY

tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeddd...so frqakin' tireeeeeeeeeeddd...oopz..dats freakin'...wahaha...wat the hell is frqakin'?..but it's kinda cool...wahaha..neways..did i mention dat i slept at 5 plus yesterday in da morn?yesh...den woke up at 7...bath...den blogged bout yesterday...den went 2 pasar geylang wit my mom n stepdad n ash...was tired b4 but i juz tagged along..after all dat..reached home at 12...den at 1 plus went out again 2 accompany my cousin 2 buy a bracelet n den accompany me 2 survey putri's coming soon presents...*b-day 25 july 2003*...hehe...walked ard den got home at 6...till now i'm still awake...haiyoh...so tired...wanted 2 sleep but couldn't as i had 2 babysit putri 4 awhile...worth it but tiring...hahakz...n now...i'm bloggin' bout today...dats about it...be bloggin' soon...phlogger is cool...haha..

a bit scared yesterday...

2004-07-08T09:05:00.000+08:00

wooaahh..yesterday was a bit scary..since me n my ghrrl didn't meet on tues..i suggested on wed..waited 4 her at da mrt...was suppose 2 meet her infront her skool but i had 2 do some errands first...anyways..it was raining..so i didn't expect her 2 come so fast...wen she came..her face was...angry..pissed off..dun blame laa..i deserve dat face...hahakz..
*conversation*
diq:*guilty face*....still angry?
syaf:*looks at me wit her angry face*....dunno..*while looking away*

okay...i really deserve dat too..hehe...made our way 2 my home..silence til upon reachin' my home..
*conversation*
diq:haf u eaten?
syaf:nopz
diq:wanna eat?my mom cooked curry chicken
syaf:dowan ah..i got sore throat..
diq:hmm..eke...

can see dat she's still angry..went inside..asked her 2 come inside my room..looked at pix on my comp..ash was inside..thank god..he knew bout wat i did..thanx ash..thanx 4 makin' her laugh...den i took a slice of honeydew..decided 2 gif her as she has sore throat...
*conversation*
diq:u want fruit?*shows it infront of her*
syaf:dowan*not so angry nemore*
diq:eat laa...u haf sore throat..fruit is good..*teases her wit da fruit*
syaf:doowaaaann..*starts laughin'*

so now...we're ok i guess...hehe...i'm really sori syaf...mmmuackz...miss you!i hafta get ready now...gotta follow my mom 2 pasar geylang..be bloggin' soon..ouh yarh...GOOD MORNING!!!

stupid me...

2004-07-07T14:10:00.000+08:00

i've made my girl really pissed...seriously pissed...who wouldn't?imagine bein' stood up 4 almost 4 hours...imagine dat...hmm?wouldn't u be pissed?..i would 2 if i were her...i dun blame her...she got every rite 2 b angry wit me..dis ain't da first time i stood her up...nopz...not da first time...i'm sori syaf..really sori..well,sayin' sori juz ain't enuf..am i rite?..dats wat i thot so...dunno how can she ever forgive me..n she did...yesh...she did...relieved but not shocked..i knew dat she ain't da type 2 make a big fuss bout this kinda things..she's an understanding person..da first thing dat made me fond of her...she msg me sayin' sori..in my mind i was like..'sori?for wat?i was in da wrong..da jerk dat stood u up..n u're juz da girl who waited 4 ur guy on our 6 months of relationship...'..i sms-ed her back..now we're okay i hope...she's truly understanding..but dat doesn't me i can take dat 4 granted..sori syaf..dats all i can say 4 now..muackz..miss you...ouh..i've updated da phlogger thingy...

i've sign up for da phlogger thingy...

2004-07-06T01:48:00.000+08:00

aight..i've sign up 4 da phlogger thingy...within a week is wen i'll be inform of how 2 use it...wahaha..syaf once had it..didn't noe dat she had one..wahaha..soriii..hehe..now dat i'll be havin' phlogger...i'll be phloggin' everyday...wahaha..if my card still has value...wahahaha...hmm..skool's startin' at eight...n i havent sleep...looks like i'll be sleepin' at skool...wahaha..tomolo..hmm..correction!..today!..is july 6..6 months oreadi?...so fast?...hehe..syaf..muackz...it's been great knowin' yarh...hahakz..as if i'm dying...hahakz..i'm being nonsensical now..so i hafta sleep now..hmm..i think i'll sleep after a ciggie...be bloggin' soon...

wat 2 write?...hmmmmmm

2004-07-05T14:33:00.000+08:00

i'm thinkin' of puttin' phlogger in my blogger..hehe..THINKIN' OF...not sure yet as i dun haf much time 2 do these things since skool is reopenin' now...haiyohh...last year..ite had a holiday for youth day but dis yr...dun haf...y ah?*confused*...wahaha...nemind ah...i'm not goin' anyways as i'm workin'..mlz ah nak gi skola...wahaha..mlz2 pon..pelajaran jugak yg bley dptkn ko keje lagi senang...hahakz...but if i put phlogger..it'd be cool too...in case i thotof a song 2 download..i can sms...go home...go 2 my site n see...in case i ferget...hehe..n other things laa...but i dun think i'll put it soon laa...mebbe...hmm...i dunno...6th of july..6 months me n my vintage darling...hehe...feels like so fast...da longest i had was 3 months...mebbe 2 u guyz it ain't dat long but to me it is...but now...6 months...6 whole months...6 WHOLE BLOODY MONTHS...wahaha...i guess i'm excited...kinda...okok...mebbe alot..hahakz...i'ma stop being mushy now...wahaha..so emo..wahaha...be bloggin' soon...

long time neva lepak...ehe..

2004-07-04T04:48:00.000+08:00

haluuuuuuuu...i'ma sad actually...kinda hiding it...hehe...'kinda'...was suppose 2 watch spiderman 2 rite...but den da tix sold out...3pm full house...3.40pm also full house...4.10pm onli front row seats and ders onli 5 seats left...haiyoh...i can't watch da rest of da shows as i'm workin' at 6...sad...was really really looking forward 2 watchin' it...nemind...mebbe nxt time...but...at least i got 2 see her...hehe...i've put her pic...see?hehe...sweet...miss her...still missing her...missing my baby tonight...hehe...i've uploaded a new song...nice...by mest also...n new pics of muh frenz...quite dark..mebbe i'ma take summore...in da day...wahahha...if i can see dem in da day dat is...hehe...so long neva lepak...my god-sis asked me 2 come down as she was bored at home...n ders a 'casino' goin' on in her house...wahaha...long time neva see her too...long time neva talk...so we met...we chatted...quite long actually...talk bout everything dat happen da past few days...ouh yarh...she got sore eyes...i'm guilty of dat...wahahaha...sori chot...dats wat i call her...chot...cute name for a cute gerl...to me it's cute la...to y'all?...hmmmm...mebbe?...nemind...i onli stayed 4 a while cuz today working...AGAIN...at 1...if possible muz come down by 12 as my fren has 2 go sumwhere FAST...we'll see if i can wake up on time...hehe...almost 5 in da morn n i'm still awake...wat the fuck...wahahaha...i'ma stop here...be bloggin' soon...hmmm...can't wait for skool actually...whahaha

working is great!..hehe

2004-07-03T13:48:00.000+08:00

haluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...i surfed da net first b4 i blogged...tok 2 my mum...showed her pics of me n muh frenz...so dat she noes who i'm wit most of da time...da ones i hang out wit laa...work was great except for 1 thing...my hp fell into a pail of cleaning water...haiyoohh....wahaha..sadness...now my fon cannot off...muz take out battery or if da battery is low den can off...haiyohh...clumsy me...hehe...i take things for granted i guess...wen my hp fell into da water,i could still laugh...hahaha...crazy me...i'ma light a ciggie...got ciggie from aida...my co-worker..marlboro menthol..not my kind of ciggie but i haf none so...juz take laa...actually she told me 2 keep it in case she doesn't come tomolo...she's suppose 2 work but can't and i hafta replace her den she sed dat she'll come down 4 a while...n i sed dun be ridiculous laa...no ciggie won't die laa...haiyohh...she sed girls can tahan but guys cannot...wat the fuck...okok...QUITE true but not ALL true...i'm sayin' dis on behalf of all da guys dat smoke...rite guys?...haiyaahh....nemind ahh...yay yay...i'll be watchin spiderman 2...at bishan at 3pm today...wheeeeeee....can't wait...hehe...but den...after da movie i hafta go straight 2 work...haiyohh...nemind ah...more hours more pay...hehe...gud mah...smoking menthol sumtimes makes me wanna vomit...dunno y...not used 2 it i guess...ciggie is finishin'...n so am i...be bloggin' soon...wit pics...hehe...miss you syaf....

work...work...WOOOOOOOOOOORKK

2004-07-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

fuck!dis blogger is really really REEAAALLYYY gettin' on my nerves...wat shit...haiyohh....ok...deep breaths...i'm cool...well...i juz finished bloggin' but cannot publish...wat da fuck!...looks like i hafta start over...but not all...lazy ah...haha..my bro,Ash, got admitted 2 ttsh for a while bcoz of his eye...he wrote bout it...linkies under ash..he put a recent pic of his eye too...gross...hehe...mine not dat gross...he's eye is more gross-er...wateva dat is...wahahha...i'ma stop here...malas nak type panjang2...sakitkan hati je...be bloggin' soon...

her lovin' keeps me movin' on

2004-07-01T13:48:00.000+08:00

morning!i juz woke up so it's morning...dun argue wit me!..k...anyways,my bro ash has started back his blog...wit a new song...it's nice...yesterday after work i met my god sis..so long neva tok 2 her...hehe...da reason y we seldom tok these days is bcoz...she has sore eyes...hehe...she got it from me...JANGKITAN...can't write much..i wanna bath(i haven't bath)...den eat den go 2 work...be bloggin' soon...

bikes...

2004-06-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

above is my old bike..hehe..blue body..yellow grip handle n brakes...da colours r nice but i want 2 make my bike as simple as possible...wit simple colours...simple handles..i wanna change da handle too...a straight pole seat wit cushion...hehe...my butt aches after every ride...haiyohh...anyways...i juz got back from my frenz block...here's da colour of my bicycle body now...

not dat clear huh?...haiyohh...it's black...wat is left 2 repair is da handle n da seat...i've fixed everything up wit da help of boy n amir...thank you guys...wahahaha...dis is wat it looks like now...

if u ca see clearly..da handles r rusted...n da seat is a curve pole hard seater...hopefully if i haf some extra money..i wanna buy da handle from my fren n straight pole cushion seater...hehe...ouh yarh...a pic of my frenz...

Amir with his new sprayed bike...

Boy with his pink bike...nice huh?he sprayed it himself...

anyways,i haf a migrane...dunno y...suddenly had one...til now...haiyohh...i'ma go bath,smoke den sleep i guess...be bloggin' soon...

and i hope that you miss me....

2004-06-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

woosh...came back from work..met up wit my frenz...they told me to repair my bike...haiyohh...leceh ouh...we'll see laa...hehe...neways...i've juz updated a recent foto of my eye...see da red clog under my pupil...gross huh?..how do u find da song?...nice?...it's by mest..chelsea...my girl put it 4 me...muackz...thanx!hehe..so long so so loooong neva see her...haiyohh...nemind...dis sat eh?aiight...hehe...i'm hungry...i think i'ma cook myself some noodles..fried noodles..fried hotdogs wit eggs..yuuuummmmyy...hehe...i'ma cook now..sucha boring entry...wahahaha...be bloggin' soon...

tired...tireeeeeeeedd..haiyoh...

2004-06-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

tired..it's been a looooong time since i last worked...so tired...alamak...i wanna shit first...*8 mins after*...hmmm...da feelin' is nice...hehe...i like smoke while i shit...for me..shit comes out easier wen i smoke...for people out der...dats ur problem...hehe..neways..yesterday..i din haf time 2 blog cuz i was soooo freakin' tired dat i fergot bout bloggin'...hehe...yesterday my bro,ash,finally had his hair done..look at da pics under frenz...i updated da foto...my fren did it for him..he used a dry bar soap n a cup of water...but it din last long bcoz of my bro's baby soft hair...so ash did it himself...he did his hair bcoz of a gig on da 27th,dats today,ends at time wat time...i do not noe...but he's not home yet..tomolo's skool n he's not home...haiyohh...nemind..he got sore eyes neways...wahahaha...got it from me..my eyes r getin' betta but ders dis red clog under my right pupil...very irritating noe...haiyohh...workin' again tomolo..so betta get some sleep...if i can...i'ma bath now...be bloggin' soon...

from work....

2004-06-26T01:03:00.000+08:00

haluu...wahaha...juz came back from work...actually from downstairs ah..almost everytime b4 goin' back from work...i'd stay wit my frenz 4 awhile...'da alik keje tak tahu nak alik tros!'...hehe...i came 2 work late actually...wahaha..suppose 2 be in at 4 but i woke up at 6...wahahahaha...so many miss calls...from my workplace n my work frenz...msgs from my my frenz 2 wake up...wahahaha...den i replied my manager's msg...she ask me 2 come cuz they nid me...so i came at 7...wahahaha...so late...later workin' at 3 n i'm still awake...wahahaha...i'ma sleep soon...soon after i finish chattin' wit my girl...n after i bath...n after i eat a bit...wahahaha...i'm thinkin' of updatin' my recent pix..wen i find da time...now...i'ma go bath...be bloggin' soon....

hehe....

2004-06-24T10:22:00.000+08:00

morn-..hmm..gud afternoon...i juz came back from my frenz house...wahaha..accidentally slept der..haiyohh...wen i woke up..i couldn't open my eyes...wat the fuck?!haha..den his grandmother sed in malay..'ah takleh bukak mater kan..tido lamer sgt..hantu da berakkan'..translation..'cannot open ur eyes...sleep too long..ghosts shit on ur eyes'..hahahaha...wat the fuck sia?!wahahaha...bout yesterday's pit...at first it was mendak..but me n da boys(ash,saiful,azhar,syadie) made it fun...we had no radio..so we sang...from oi to punk to emo to jiwang to pop to nasyid(islamic songs)...wahahaha...my brother's home-made teriyaki chicken was da BEST...but we only ate a few as there were many more coming...at 2245,we headed home as saiful couldn't stay overnite..when we left...DEN more people came...haiyohh...bukan nak dtg siang2...i took pics on our dgcam...n added new friends..take a look while i take a shower...hehe..be bloggin' soon....

woooohoooooooooo.....

2004-06-23T10:22:00.000+08:00

woooohoooooooo...i've fixed da music code..updated my blog wit my horrific pix n albums...put more links...wooooohooooooo...wat is left is my archives...hmmm...my bro has been bz lately...preparin' da stuff 4 a pit he organised 4 fun...hehe...dear,if u're readin' this..sori if i din asked u 2 tag along as this ting starts at 5...sori...my bro has been marinated chickens..aluminium foilin' corns n deep fryin' fries...da fries are prepared juz b4 we go off...hehe...goin' out at 4...hopin' 2 reach der by 5 or 5 plus laa...i've juz updated a recent photo of me...my eyes r gettin' worst...now dat my right eye is gettin' better...my left eye is gettin' worst...u hafta see it in real life 2 see da difference...i juz got home...from my frenz house..as usual...wahaha...watched van helsing...it was a GREAT movie..hmmmm...i noe i noe...i'm waaaaaayyy behind...so wat if i watch it late...at least i got 2 watch it...actually my frenz asked me 2 go tan tock seng...wahaha...2 check how my eye is WHILE checkin' out da nurses der...wahaha...but i din want 2...so i asked dem 2 tag along 2 my bro's pit...dunno whether there'll b enuf food...wahahah...i asked dem 2 meet me at blk 646 at 4...hmm...do i nid sleep?...i guess i do...i'ma sleep now...be awake at 2...be bloggin' soon...toodles~

morning!

2004-06-22T06:02:00.000+08:00

it's 6 now...onli a few more mins 2 breakfast..hehe...da other wen i din sleep for 17 hours..i slept at 10am n woke up at.....12AM...wahahaha...more den 12 hours of sleep...it was HEAVEN but bcoz i had sore eyes wit da common infection(sticky white stuff comes out dat makes ur eyelids stick together)...i couldn't open my eyes as it was stuck together..i was sooo fuckin' scared at first..but i seloooowly opened my eyes...it was painful but i juz had 2..after dat i bath..hehe...i din bath for a day...wat u expect me 2 do?eat first?..wahahaha...i was soo hungry den..after shower,i ate..after eatin',i lite a ciggie..after smokin',i shit...hehe...so basically..all da food dat i ate...went down da drain...wat a waste...hehe...i guess my eyes will be better after a month...i had this b4..i had 2 undergo an operation da last time...so scared..thot i was goin' blind..hmmmmmm...my pix r down...shitty man!...wahahaha...i wanna add archives...make it like a calendar...it's kinda cool...to me laa...stylo kedebab..hehe..mebbe i'll do it later...wen my bro wakes up...well..dats all...be bloggin' soon...jeng jeng jeng....

what the fuck?!

2004-06-21T09:53:00.000+08:00

y izzit hard 2 get into my blog account?...wat da fuck...nemind..i got in anyways.my eyes(yesh..both eyes) is still sore..FUCK!..yesterday,my girl helped me on my tagboard n muh pictures...so nice of her...MISS YA!..but unfortunately,my pictures r broken..in link dat is...SHIT!..but nemind..won't die...i'll juz repair it...or ask my bro 2 repair it...or might as well not haf pictures...i dun mind...my bro juz bought a new digicam..it's betta i guess..it can shoot vidz wit sound...wheeeeeeee...best!..wahahaha...i haven't slept yet..since 5.30pm yesterday till now...but i oreadi bath laa..at my frenz house...(this itch in my eye is irritating)...sumtimes i feel like punchin' my eye but dat'll be stupid...wahaha...i wanna add music to this blog...but how?...hmmm...i think i'll start searchin' now...tata!

still sore...

2004-06-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

my eye is still sore..juz woke up...haven't bath(eeeww)..wahaha..yesterday...stayed at my frenz house...den stayed at another frenz house...played ps till 10...wahaha...so lame...yesterday was quite a lame day without my sis...i'm not actually sayin' dat it was lame bcoz my sis wasn't there...juz dat it was lame...my lips are sticky...wahaha...(eeewww)...my girl offered 2 help me...yay!but i wan her 2 teach me as well...my eyes are sticy too...i think i'll haf a long shower now...very long...like bapok...be bloggin' soon...

mendak...

2004-06-20T10:18:00.000+08:00

juz woke up...had my dinner n ate my medicine..this eye is killin' me..i'm still fixin' my blog..i wanna add photos n edit my tagboard...at home is where i'll be until my eye gets betta...so FUCKIN" bored...MENDAK!..i think i'ma smoke now..be bloggin' soon...

newbie....

2004-06-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

i'ma newbie..hehe...actually..i've thot of bloggin' months ago but din noe how to..n i still dun...hehe...i'm askin' anyone dat noes anything...plzzzz...help me...hehe...i have sore eyes rite now...so i'ma rest first...be bloggin' soon...

hmmm..

3 years..wow

what a week

it's a pity...

2 mths oreadi?

i really hate this...

april fool

baby iman...

don't shut yourself out..

gime me a chance...

don't hope..

mc's over...

forgiven?

a mistake made..

dressings...

bored being on mc..

piyo piyo.............

p.o.p.....i think..

2 mths..

almost a month in camp...

jb was fun..

a wk 2 go..

13 sept..

weird feelings..

it's been a while....

Ubin Trip pt.1

today.

alas..a critic in the mist....

miss me??

ooo..

fun at the beach..again

fun at the beach..

bz bz bz bz bz bz bz.....

fucking shit!..

mmkay..

mmm....

boredom..

fucked up..

early post..

yay!

wow!

slmt rayer...

slmt berpuasa!

long days long nights....

work....

juz to blog...

people change...so do i...hehee

bout today

sumtimes....

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slmt berpuasa!

HAHAHA!

way to go!!!...hahahaha

nuthin' 2 write...honestly...

wats 2 bcome of myself?

tak sedap badan ah...

further n further apart yarh?

new girl in town...

pnat...

Pariah(n; social outcast)

long time....

a week huh?...seems like a month.....

frqakin'

2ND ENTRY

a bit scared yesterday...

stupid me...

i've sign up for da phlogger thingy...

wat 2 write?...hmmmmmm

long time neva lepak...ehe..

working is great!..hehe

work...work...WOOOOOOOOOOORKK

her lovin' keeps me movin' on

bikes...

and i hope that you miss me....

tired...tireeeeeeeedd..haiyoh...

from work....

hehe....

woooohoooooooooo.....

morning!

what the fuck?!

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