YTuesday, January 10, 2006' 2:39 AM
boredom..thats what im feeling right now..being on mc isn't as much fun like y'all think it is..as for me..i can't walk properly..as my wound isn't fully healed..so basically i can't walk alot..how i wish a miracle would happen and i could go back to work..be my normal self and walk properly..but i can't..just have to wait for it to fully heal i guess..i can go out..only for smokes..but when im back at amk..i can just smoke in the room..so what can i possibly do?nothing...well..i guess i will be doing something there..at least i can like update my blog template..edit my profiles here and there..edit some pictures..or take new ones...basically just that..it's already hari raya haji..have to be up by 6..follow my dad to the mosque..but i have to stay in the car..after my dad and my brothers finish their prayers..we're heading to the grand's for a visit..those who've gone to haji that is..after that..we'll be heading home..then i'll be stuck at home..UNLESS..my heel is feeling abit better..UNLESS..i can walk without the crutches..let it be soon..how i wish..but i can only pray...mm..i miss my girl badly..although im on mc..i can't see her...physically..for the time being..she doesn't want me walking around making my wound any worst..but im a stubborn guy..she's sick..badly...i feel sad not being by her..taking care of her..making sure she eats her medicine..making sure she eats well..making sure she drinks alot of water..to replace lost fluids of course..i should i guess..i learned about it through the medic course..i wanna accompany her to the doctor this thursday..she says she can go by herself..what if she faints?i can be the arms to catch her fall..what if she feels giddy?i can walk with her through the day..although my left heel is injured..the other parts of my body is still functional..im not weak..im just temporarily disabled..i really wanna be there for her..it hurts to see her like this..feels bad knowing i can't do anything about it..sure she has her friends..unless i know her friends..i don't really trust them that much..when i talked to her on the phone..she kept coughing and sniffing..saddens me to hear that..she's really ill...mm...but she's old enough to take care of herself..i trust her to take care of herself..so what i can do is just pray for her well being..and that she'll get better soon..mm...i think she is clueless of how much i care for her..can't blame her for that..i've never really been there for her these few months..busy with work and all..but i'll make it up to her..one day...i feel sleepy but i cannot sleep..i guess knowing that she's sick is really bothering me..mm...thought of asking her to come over my place..but she's sick..so i'll come to her place..but she won't let me..*u dok uma diam2..kaki u da kene operate beh nk jln agi..*..thats what she told me..we'll see k..miss her so much...well..just hoping to meet her before my mc is done..be bloggin..tomorrow i guess
