YWednesday, January 18, 2006' 11:52 AM
me and my girl talked..she made me realise my mistake..both...yes...it wasn't one but two..she made me realise it when she told me..she's right..people don't know their mistakes until someone tells them..damn..i hate to admit it..but she's thinking more matured then me..mistakes..i guess maturity comes from the mistakes we make..for the past 20 years..the only mistake i've ever made is when im with the ones i love..what i've realise is that the only same mistake that i keep on repeating is breaking promises...and believe me..the promises i've made..and broken...is really hurtful...personally..im no good at keeping big promises..small ones i can handle..but not big ones..come to think of it..i've made a mistake twice..in a day....people can change..thats what she told me once..then i told her yarh..but it's either for the better or for the worst..am i changing?..i dunno...til now im still thinking about the mistake i made..that mistake made me think back about all the other mistakes i've done before..not only to her..she's really being so understanding about the whole thing..she's willing to give me another chance..would you?if your significant other made a mistake twice to you in a day...depends what kind of mistake they'd make right?but believe me..it's personal...and i mean literally...i try to give it another chance..she did...why can't i?i guess i still need time to think about it...the only time that i can really put my mind out it is when im with her..or just listening to some music..mm...music has always been a distraction to my massive thinking...hahaha...too much thinking gives me headaches anyways...hahaha..be bloggin
YSaturday, January 14, 2006' 3:04 PM
i made a mistake..yesterday i did something which hurt my chot's feelings..i broke a promise that i made to her..and now she like so angry with me...so damn mad..and now i'm feeling guilty..and scared..i admit..i've changed a lot..but i still love her....i do
YWednesday, January 11, 2006' 9:56 AM
morning people..i just got back from the polyclinic nearby..at ang mo kio...had my dressing there..have to change the the dressing on my foot alternate days..a short but painful procedure...a nurse will cut up my old dressing..then take out the cotton which was shoved inside my wound..only a little bit of pain..then she'll start cleaning the wound..that procedure is damn painful...hahahah..after that she'll start to shoved some sterlize cotton into my wound again..cover it up with bandage and she's done...short but painful...hahahha...my dad sent me there..then send me back home too..im grateful to have such caring parents...love them....i did some minor picture adjustments to my blog..a new picture of putri..as for the rest...it's yet to be settled...maybe tonight..for now..ima eat my medicine and rest til afternoon..my cousin's coming down to pay me a visit at home..she's gonna order pizza hut for my birthday...hehehe..happy birthday to me...yay!..hahaha..i'm 20..getting older every year..hehehe..be bloggin
YTuesday, January 10, 2006' 2:39 AM
boredom..thats what im feeling right now..being on mc isn't as much fun like y'all think it is..as for me..i can't walk properly..as my wound isn't fully healed..so basically i can't walk alot..how i wish a miracle would happen and i could go back to work..be my normal self and walk properly..but i can't..just have to wait for it to fully heal i guess..i can go out..only for smokes..but when im back at amk..i can just smoke in the room..so what can i possibly do?nothing...well..i guess i will be doing something there..at least i can like update my blog template..edit my profiles here and there..edit some pictures..or take new ones...basically just that..it's already hari raya haji..have to be up by 6..follow my dad to the mosque..but i have to stay in the car..after my dad and my brothers finish their prayers..we're heading to the grand's for a visit..those who've gone to haji that is..after that..we'll be heading home..then i'll be stuck at home..UNLESS..my heel is feeling abit better..UNLESS..i can walk without the crutches..let it be soon..how i wish..but i can only pray...mm..i miss my girl badly..although im on mc..i can't see her...physically..for the time being..she doesn't want me walking around making my wound any worst..but im a stubborn guy..she's sick..badly...i feel sad not being by her..taking care of her..making sure she eats her medicine..making sure she eats well..making sure she drinks alot of water..to replace lost fluids of course..i should i guess..i learned about it through the medic course..i wanna accompany her to the doctor this thursday..she says she can go by herself..what if she faints?i can be the arms to catch her fall..what if she feels giddy?i can walk with her through the day..although my left heel is injured..the other parts of my body is still functional..im not weak..im just temporarily disabled..i really wanna be there for her..it hurts to see her like this..feels bad knowing i can't do anything about it..sure she has her friends..unless i know her friends..i don't really trust them that much..when i talked to her on the phone..she kept coughing and sniffing..saddens me to hear that..she's really ill...mm...but she's old enough to take care of herself..i trust her to take care of herself..so what i can do is just pray for her well being..and that she'll get better soon..mm...i think she is clueless of how much i care for her..can't blame her for that..i've never really been there for her these few months..busy with work and all..but i'll make it up to her..one day...i feel sleepy but i cannot sleep..i guess knowing that she's sick is really bothering me..mm...thought of asking her to come over my place..but she's sick..so i'll come to her place..but she won't let me..*u dok uma diam2..kaki u da kene operate beh nk jln agi..*..thats what she told me..we'll see k..miss her so much...well..just hoping to meet her before my mc is done..be bloggin..tomorrow i guess
YMonday, January 09, 2006' 1:52 AM
i've post out...yaaaaaaaaaaayy...but sadly..i'm on mc for 2 weeks..damn..why?because of the fucking 'blister' the fucking 'm.o.' from my camp claimed it was nothing but then it was something...SERIOUS..it was actually a bacteria spreading at my heel..luckily i went straight to the hospital after camp to get it check out..because it was really getting irritatably painful since thursday..if i hadn't gone to the hospital..i might have gotten my leg amputated..hahaha...same thing that nearly happen at the top of my right ass...hahahaha...i undergo-ed an operation the day before yesterday and was discharged yesterday..now on mc for 2 weeks..lame-o....some of y'all might really think that i'm crazy but i'm really looking to the fire fighting course..and i'm gonna miss a week of it..or maybe more..depending of the recovery of my operated heel...FUCK...the stupid 'm.o.' in camp should be sued...but never mind..cannot really blame the shithead..due to all the 'chao-kengs'..there's a possibility that he might think i was one too...hahahha...i'm just glad i'm still in one piece..only sad about missing the 1st week of fire fighting..no use regreting now..the only thing i can do now is finish up my antibiotics and go for new bandages every other day..hope it really gets better soon..a week please?hehehe...it's getting late..i'ma sleep..be bloggin..alot i guess..due to boredom at home...hahahaha
