YWednesday, June 15, 2005' 2:20 AM
weird feelings...weird feelings towards this particular girl....i don't get it...do i like her or not..am i so bored that i'm starting to like her?or do i have real feelings for her?sometimes i care for her..but other times i couldn't care less..sometimes i'll miss her..but other times i'd go 'who?'..this girl is my ex for dunno how many long years ago..we were together for a month then broke up for some stupid reason..right now..i'm feeling nothing for her..weird?..i know i liked her before..i've missed her before..i'm guessing it's just a fling..damn..maybe because..i've confessed my feelings for her..but she was taking it like a joke..couldn't care less i suppose..so i'm giving up?...hmmmm..let it go i guess..just let her go...honestly not the right time for me to have a girl..it won't last..i guess..nah..i know i cannot have a serious relationship now..i just need a companion..like my godsis...no strings attached..i think for the time being..i just need her right now..love you chot..to my girl cousins..these doesn't mean i don't need you guys..you know i love you guys..
YWednesday, June 08, 2005' 1:29 AM
hello again..been busy lately..didn't even have time to finish my 2nd part of the ubin trip..haha..now is already 8 of june..my ex's birthday...happy birthday to you...the ubin trip was 28 march...almost 3 months ago...hehehe..so looonngg...hahahaha...busy with what?..the usual stuffs...family..school..work..friends..right now...only busy with work...i don't work 24/7 but whenever i'm not working..i'd go out...never at home...only in the wee hours...hehe..even my mom's been complaining to me.. mom said, "when you're not working..you go out.if not,you work..i seldom see you at home..only at night..in the midnight..when i usually sleep..nowadays,we seldom sit down and talk.take off la one day..stay at home..don't go out.accompany me." ...sad huh??..i'll try mom..i'll try...life has been quite exciting nowadays..made friends here n there..kinda cool though...made friends with older peepz..older female peepz..hiak hiak..long story short...they're one of my ex's aunties..hahahah...honestly didn't know at first...we hung out a few times..played some pool..chilled at esplanade...it's okay la..why do i have the time to blog now?..hmm...well today..i feel like blogging..as tomorrow i'm not working..going out yes but in the afternoon...around 4...have to do some errands before that..some people are going to look at my house..hafta make my house clean..my mom does the cleaning..i just hafta look after my sister..my mom wanna sell it..the flat i mean...hehe...i feel sad for two person right now...one is my brother..the other is my cousin...i'ma stop here..gotta post a comment...cya ard...
