YSunday, August 29, 2004' 4:36 AM
sometimes....i feel like i have nothing left to do in this world...like there's no use...some of the things i'm doing are for nothing!...whats the use of studying if i know i won't pay attentionso me say to study to get good grades so that i can find a job easier...thats a good reason...but honestly...i'm useless..so i know for sure i won't be able to find a stable job...whats the use of having a relationship when i know it won't last...some say to have a long term relationship..i must have commitment...why must i commit now when i'm still young?some say to commit is to love and to love...there's a possibility that if i am married to the girl i love..the marriage will last...but then again...like i said...i know for sure i won't be able to find a stable job...with no stable job...how can i support a family?i don't want to be a burden to anyone...ok...so if i don't find a stable job..will i still stay with my parents?yesh but i won't be burden as i will pay share the bill too...i won't be a burden that way...unless they don't like the idea...i will move out...whats the use of listening when i myself have no one to turn to.....except my family laa...but if you're in a case like me...who seldom sees their cousins...who seldom talk to your parents...reasons are not because you're not close but because you're always busy...and mostly...it's friends that you're always with..be it school friends or work friends...get the picture?whats the use of quiting smoking when i no i will die one day...could be tomorrow but who knows..some say to quit so that i won't die faster...hmm...i wouldn't be smoking one day and then
BANG!...a car knocked me down and i died on the spot...whats the use?some say to quit so that my breath won't stink...my teeth won't yellow...my lips won't blacken...so?people can criticise whatever they want to...it's their mouth...not mine...what can i possibly do if people hate me?change?haha!i am who i am...and that is what makes us human beings unique...i'll do what i can and i'll be what i am...an average teenage guy who slacks...amongst the people i noe...i'm the slackiest...hahaha...slackiest?is there such a word?anyways...whats the point of having a blog when i'm always writing nonsense?...i'ma sleep laa...and forget about everything i thought about.....and have sweet dreams...this is the life of a negative thinker....be bloggin'....
