YTuesday, August 31, 2004' 12:20 AM
ok...about today..basically my friend is reporting to ns 1 september so he thought of going out with his friends for the last time...that is until he has to report in laa...anyways..he did asked me to skip school to join him and some of my secondary school friends to feast and maybe hang out but because of my attendance...i can't afford to skip school...so i only joined him at night...we played pool...i like pool...i love pool...but it's a pity i can't always play pool...hehe...it's been quite a long time since i've played pool but i had fun...then my friend had to go off first...so i'm only left with the rest of the gang...we played for almost 2 hours...a good game indeed...thinking of a rematch again...hehehe...when i have the money laa...honestly...i don't think this is interesting...so i'ma stop here...hoping for a more interesting post next time...hehehe...be bloggin'...
YSunday, August 29, 2004' 4:36 AM
sometimes....i feel like i have nothing left to do in this world...like there's no use...some of the things i'm doing are for nothing!...whats the use of studying if i know i won't pay attentionso me say to study to get good grades so that i can find a job easier...thats a good reason...but honestly...i'm useless..so i know for sure i won't be able to find a stable job...whats the use of having a relationship when i know it won't last...some say to have a long term relationship..i must have commitment...why must i commit now when i'm still young?some say to commit is to love and to love...there's a possibility that if i am married to the girl i love..the marriage will last...but then again...like i said...i know for sure i won't be able to find a stable job...with no stable job...how can i support a family?i don't want to be a burden to anyone...ok...so if i don't find a stable job..will i still stay with my parents?yesh but i won't be burden as i will pay share the bill too...i won't be a burden that way...unless they don't like the idea...i will move out...whats the use of listening when i myself have no one to turn to.....except my family laa...but if you're in a case like me...who seldom sees their cousins...who seldom talk to your parents...reasons are not because you're not close but because you're always busy...and mostly...it's friends that you're always with..be it school friends or work friends...get the picture?whats the use of quiting smoking when i no i will die one day...could be tomorrow but who knows..some say to quit so that i won't die faster...hmm...i wouldn't be smoking one day and then
BANG!...a car knocked me down and i died on the spot...whats the use?some say to quit so that my breath won't stink...my teeth won't yellow...my lips won't blacken...so?people can criticise whatever they want to...it's their mouth...not mine...what can i possibly do if people hate me?change?haha!i am who i am...and that is what makes us human beings unique...i'll do what i can and i'll be what i am...an average teenage guy who slacks...amongst the people i noe...i'm the slackiest...hahaha...slackiest?is there such a word?anyways...whats the point of having a blog when i'm always writing nonsense?...i'ma sleep laa...and forget about everything i thought about.....and have sweet dreams...this is the life of a negative thinker....be bloggin'....
YThursday, August 26, 2004' 7:51 PM
hmm..i'm starting to be my old lazy self once more..starting to slack in school..being my old crazy self in school...never doing anything in school...go to school...go to class...but sleep in class instead of jotting down the things written on the whiteboard or doing whatever experiments the teacher is asking us to do...i guess i'm not cut out to have a stable job...a family...a wife...some kids...not ut out at all...how am i going to have all those if i can't even support myself...i totally deserve this for slacking too much...hahaha..i can still laugh at a time like this?...hmm...at a time like what exactly?..hahahaha...slacking..........slacking my life away...awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy...doing nothing much but smoke,eat,drink,bath,slack.....a boooooooooooooooooooorreeee...a totaaaaaaaalll booooooooooooooooooorreee...thats what...i'ma start blogging again...so i have more things to do other then smoke,eat,drink,bath,slack...hahahaha...i'ma do something else laa...nothing much happen to me today....tatatititutu...be bloggin'......
lately..i've been coming home late...latenights...very late...like 3-4 in the morning late...hehe...late huh?honestly been treating my house like a hotel...'checking in checking out' as and when i please...i'm changing from bad to worst to worseness...if there is such a word..haha!...see?i can still laugh at a time like this...wheeeeee...so happy yet so gloomy...suppose to be slowing down on cigarettes because of the fasting period but i'm getting heavier...what the fuck!...haha....
"shadiq!you better change!"...been neglecting school for work...what a waste..no work no money...i know...but in singapore...no cert no career...a job maybe..a career...uncertain...
"oi shithead!if you think that way..why don't you just change?"change...an easy word to say...impossible to accomplish...with an attitude like mine..i can never change...bit by bit yes...but until when?i dunno...hehe....
"such low self-esteem...none at all"....true true...hehee...so i'm signing off now...sahur pagi,puase lagi,buke kfc...hiak hiak...be bloggin........
YMonday, August 16, 2004' 12:25 AM
FINALLY!...after weeks of busy-ness..i've
FINALLY got the time to blog...
HAHA!...since i was so busy...i didn't even have time to see chot(god-sis)..it was on a sunday..15 august..not working on that day too..hehe...went to her house..and was suprise to know that some of my underblock friends were there...haha..long time never see them too...we talked...then went out to eat...then went back to chot's house again...talked again...haha...weeks of not seeing each other...we sure chatted alot...hahahaha...soooooooo many thing s to tell her...ask her...haha...soooooo many...she too has sooooo many things to tell...but mostly...she was doing all the telling and i was asking...hahaha...miss her laa..cannot blame me...haaha..i went home around 9 i think...i started blogging now because kEi was using it...anyways...i wanna find more time to update my blog...i can't change the template because i don't know how to...the pictures...the song...i know....hmmmm...the color?..i'll try laa...life has been weird..syaf is no longer my girl...i'm a jerk...
I KNOW!...hate me please!...haha!,,,people nowadays call me mat malaysia...hahaha...because of what i wear...haha..kla kla...long time no blog...i'm starting to blog nonsense...hahah...good night everyone...i'm a start changin' the pictures...be blogging...urm..soon...i guess...hahaha....
YTuesday, August 03, 2004' 4:57 PM
the reason i haven't been blogging these is because i'm repenting...hahaha...i can say that i'm changing...into a better....into worse...a little bit of both laa...hahaha...i'm attending class now..after 1 month...hahaha...why dick?why have you become like this?...hahaha...i went to school...wit no books...nor pen...or any paper...the going to school is good...the not bringing any writing paper is bad...hahaha..one more worse thing...i'm neglecting everyone around me...we talk...we chat...we joke...we had fun...that is if we meet...other then that...i juz sit at home..watch tv...eat...or just sleep...peer pressure?nah...i don't think so...exhausted?yes...during the 1 month i didn't go to school...i worked..after work...chilled with my frenz til the early morning...then the next day work again...tired...exhausted...PENAT!...hahaha...i need rest...sleep is good...but i have to go out and fix my roster...maybe after i eat..n bath...and find a cigarette...i want to shit but i got no cigarette...smoking...it's that i can't quit...i don't want to quit...don't tag why...i guess i'll go take a shower now...i stink...then shit...hopefully i'll find one...ouh yarh...iwebmusic is back...yippee...be blogging soon...
