..it was great while it lasted..

Sunday, July 16, 2006

oh boy...what a week...firstly on monday..at 1 in the morning there was an exercise..on tuesday morning actually..exercise boca or something..don't really remember the name..but it was damn tiring..but we pulled through..me and my platoon mates of course..and there other platoons involved too..i could say that we did quite well actually..then on wednesday..there was an rept test..a test which will determine our fireman skills..i got an A for every test except one..what a waste..if not i'd be getting $200 more on my next pay..but too bad..guess i can try again next year..that is if im not clearing my leave by then..hahaha...on thursday..my platoon is on standby..and involved in another exercise..about a plane crashing at sea..we were divided in 2 groups..first aid point and rescue..it wasn't that tiring but it was quite long..we had to for the sea rescuers to search and rescue the "casualties" and bring them to shore..at the jetty..at changi..there..me and my other platoon mates and some fire fighters waited..and we would escort the walking casualties or carry the lying casualties with stretchers to the first aid point and go back again until there's no more casualties found..after the exercise,went back to camp..i don't know why i was so tired..once i reached our bunk..i just went straight to bed and slept til morning..fortunately there was no turn outs..woke up at 7..took a shower..then had breakfast with some of my mates..we were off on friday..for doing good on the boca exercise..still not sure about the name..anyways..i accompanied my friend to jb..he wanted to fix his motorcycle..after that we kinda went shopping..there were 3 of us..me and my other friend bought some things..i bought shoes,facial wash,hair gel..i was so happy to get those shoes i wanted..hehehe..but i wasn't for long..apparently i was careless when i chilled under my block with my friend for a while..i took out my phone to msg my dad and forgot to keep it back..went back as normal..and had to go to my dad's for ngaji as normal..when i was just about to call my dad that i was going out of the house..then i realised that my phone was nowhere to be found..DAMN..fortunately it's not that expensive and i was going to buy a new one anyways..so i terminated my line temporary..and i'll be getting a new phone next month and reactivate my line at the same time..what a week..so hectic..hahaha...be bloggin

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Friday, June 23, 2006

It's A Pity

you know i love you.. i've always do
but too often i make you feel blue..
i appreciate your love.. don't be mistaken
it's just that i tend to make the wrong decisions
too often i act before really thinking..
and now you're gone..you're already leaving
you're not to blame.. seriously.. i've let you down
those hopes you had for me.. by now has drown
i turned out to be the guy you never thought i'd be..
i was just like the rest.. another jerk maybe
i'm sorry for all the pain i've caused
i'm sorry for all the love that's lost
i'm sorry it had to be this way
it's a pity... i couldn't make you stay

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heelloooo...it's been very very very very very long since i've blogged huh?well..my comp's been giving me trouble due to too much memory used..hehehe..partly my fault..and i wasn't feeling that good these few months..it's been 2 months plus since chot and me broke up..been feeling very down..so alone..as if my life has no meaning left to live in..as if there's no one else whom i can share my life with..besides my family and friends that is..well..i've come to realise..it was great while it lasted..i still love her but she can't possibly love someone like me..thats what she said..so i guess i just have to accept it and move on..whatever or whoever makes her happy...im happy for her..that's about it i guess..be bloggin

ps.check out this new rhyme i did(top)..hehe..

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Monday, April 10, 2006

this sucks..i really hate this..she can take the silent treatment..i can't..i can't help worrying..how's she doing..how's her daughther doing..is she eating well..does she have plenty of rest..i miss her..i really do..i miss her alot..i can't write anymore...be bloggin

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Saturday, April 01, 2006

i just got out from the hospital..the doctor says i have a serious case of broncitis..usually it can be cured but my case is different due to the constant smoking..damn...he said that i might live to a month..the most..the least?anytime soon i guess..so...what's the use of stopping now since im gonna die anyways...hahaha..do you guys actually believe that?hahaha...APRIL FOOL..gotcha...not that hilarious..i know..hahaha...anyways..i just reached home..was on duty yesterday..i actually thought of staying up til the next morning..but was tired due to the punishment i was given..haha...there was this interview yesterday..after my turn..i had to call another person..but that person did not hear..so it's my fault..hahaha...honestly..i'd rather be punished then sign an extra..hahahaha..after the punishment..thought could tahan ar..stay up maybe...movie marathon-ing..but was tired..DAMN..so i slept..and now hat i've reached home..thought of sleeping after blogging..and im done..be bloggin

miss you sweetheart.....

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

may peace be upon all of you...hehehe....i just got back from jb..visited my mom who just gave birth to a beautiful baby boy named Muhammad Iman on 21st march..hehehe...i got pictures to show but i got no time today..i'll publish it next week if im not busy or anything..it's been quite a while since i've visited my mom..i think i'll be doing that once a month whenever i have the time..this month went alone..thought of going with ash and my girl..but both couldn't make it..so i went alone..fortunately i know how to get there..hahaha..if not i'd be lost..hahahahaha..anyways...i wasted no time taking pictures of baby iman..videos too...my mom says he looks abit like ash..i dunno..i couldn't really see it..later i'ma asked anga to take some more pictures..he's heading there today..not alone..with my stepdad..im certain he'll take more pictures of baby iman then me..hahahah...he loves babies..and when it comes to baby sister and brother..he's loving it..hahahha..maybe if my girl's not tired..ima go eat with her..if not...alone then..hahaha..by now i should be used to it already..this sucks..even when she's not working..i don't see her that often..hahaha....i hate this..i'ma grab myself a snack..take a shower..pack a few things for camp..then rest before going...be bloggin.....

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Saturday, March 18, 2006

is it too late for me to change now?are my previous changes too drastic that you've lost all love in us?don't leave me wondering..don't shut yourself out..please..im begging for you to tell me the truth..tell what's wrong...is there anything bothering you?or am i bothering you?since your birthday..things change...im starting to change to my old self..but you're starting to change to your old self too...it's been 6 months we've been together..you're bored with me already?i know i did wrong..i know i changed alot...i realise it now...if there really is something bothering you..tell me..please...don't keep it inside..don't hide it from me..you know i love..always have and never won't..believe when i say that i've never been so serious with a girl before..let alone you..who was once just a friend to me..then a best friend..to god sister...now a special someone whom i've thought of marrying..im sorry..truly am sorry...i understand it take some time to forgive me..but at least tell me what's wrong..what's boethering you..what's on your mind right now..or do you need time alone now..i'll wait this time..and not freak out about it..i promise.....i promise i'll change and prove it to you one day..if you could just give me a chance...i love you..and you know it's true..miss you sweetheart..

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

yesterday's pit...wasn't really what i expected..a simple kiss and a simple 'thank you would surely do it...instead..she brought him with her..im not angry that she invited him..but not telling me about it..is really unexpectable...*i want to make it up to you..make up all the stupid things i did before..if you would just give me a chance..seriously...but i guess i deserve it..happy birthday*..overall was okay..food wasn't enough...so i bought more..came at 8 at night..went off at 8 in the morning...me,my girl,ash and alip took the bus home..i just woke up..later going to my uncle's..collect a few things there..then to my girl's..give her a few things she wanted..then back home..and around 10..off to camp..yesterday was so confusing..that i forgot to take pictures..damn....hahaha...i'll write about camp next time round..gotta go now..be bloggin

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